Katniss
During the last two weeks things seemed to be back to normal. The kingdom was running as well as it could. I was once again involeved in the descisions of my country.
However things weren't back to normal for me, I felt lonely.
Peeta was my best friend, the person who was always next to me. It took time to get used to doing stuff on my own that I used to do with him.
Eating was a big one, I always ate with Peeta next to me and Louis.
Johanna and Haymich take turns eating with me and Louis. It's become a routine now.
Walking with Louis is now just me.
Our bed has now turned into my bed.
I know Haymich and Jo are worried about me. They don't think it's healthy how I just suppressed my emotions in order think of France first.
Haymich always comes to check up on me in the middle of the night, I pretend to be asleep but I hardly sleep. I have probably gone 2 days without sleeping, only taking small naps.
The day I sat at my throne thinking I was on the verge of a breakdown. The throne room was empty and I remebered how I stood up here to announce his death and how quickly I was forced to send to shit my emotions.
A door opening made me look up. I immedietly stood up and ran. I threw myself onto him and I held him tight. He softly stoked my hair and I felt tears on my neck and he could feel my tears on his neck.
We slowly sat on the floor not letting eachother go, I missed his embrace.
"It's be so difficult, so difficult" I said in a whisper.
He didn't say anything he just held me in his arms until I fell asleep.
When I woke up, he was next to me holding my hand.
"What are you doing here?" I asked as I sat up.
"I came to check up on you" he said with a small smile on his face.
His blue eyes looked at me, they were filled with sadness.
"I'm so sorry, I'm sorry I couldn't make it" The tears began to fall from his face and I knew it was time for me to comfort him.
I opened my arms and he sat between my legs and I held him while he cried.
I softly stoked his hair as he let it all out.
We comforted eachother.
"Thank you for coming Philip" I whispered.
"I would never let you go through this alone" he said and I know he meant it.
"When do you go back?" I asked him.
"I have arranged a long stay, I want to help you through this" he kissed my forehead.
"Thank you" I said and he nodded.
A couple of months later
Today has been the first time in month where I woke up not feeling an empty feeling in my bed.
Infact as I woke up I was happy and I couldn't wait to get up.
My ladies walked in, "Good morning Katniss"
"Good morning girls" I smiled at them. Glimmer and Clove immedietly went to my closet to pick out options for dresses.
When they came back all the options were black which I understood because for so long all I wanted was to wear black, it felt as if that was the only way to express my emotions.
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She Reign
Fiksi PenggemarKatniss is the future Queen of France. One of the Mellark brothers is set to rule England. Will one of them be able to capture the young queens heart and secure an alliance forever. -on going