Its always been you

Moving on with my life

"You awake?" My bedroom door opened and Elena walked in. I glanced at her and she smiled and as she closed the door and walked over to me." You okay?" I wipped my tears and sat up. She sat on the edge of the bed and looked at me. The moment my eyes met her's I broke down and cried. She walked over to me and hugged me. One thing I really missed was my sister's hugs. Her and I don't always see eye to eye but when I really do need her she is there just like I am. For the past two days all I did was cry and have Stefan on my mind. No matter how hard I tried to put on my fake smile somehow my tears won. "Amanda you should really stop stressing. This isn't good for you or the ba-"

"I know-" I pulled away and grabbed a tissue and wipped my eyes."- I try and try not to sad or stressed out  and I wanna be happy but right now I can't. " which is true. I haven't even slept at all. For some reason my mind isn't tired. Every night I sit by my bedroom window and look out. Hoping that I'll see him walking up the driveway. "I miss him Elena." She squeezed my right hand. "This isn't how him and I were suppose to end-"

"I don't belive he dumped you Amanda." She says." Stefan was and is so in love with you -"

" Yeah right."

"Amanda he is."

"Then how come he isn't here with me?"I was tired of everyone telling me that he was in love with me and he'll be back. He just needs some space to clear his head." Elena you know him better than anyone. Do you honestly think he's gonna-"

"Yeah I do. Amanda maybe something has him away again."

"What like Klaus?"

"Have you talked to him"

"Yeah and I have asked him over and over again about Stefan and he always says the same thing he doesn't know where he is" the first time I talked to Klaus and asked him if he seen or heard from Stefan he flipped out on me. Telling me not to call him anymore looking for my "boyfriend"

"Amanda I think you should just relax and let Stefan come back-"

"Elena I love you and all but right now you're making me want to punch you in the face." She looked a little taken back but I was telling her the truth. I know she wants to be there for me and she wants to give me the best advise in the world and sometimes she does but right now isn't that time. "I'm sorry...... For some reason I cant control my mouth."

"It's alright."

"No it's not." I laid back down. "I need to stop being a bitch to you and everyone." I grabbed my purple blankets and covered my face. I heard Elean sigh then I felt my bed move which meant Elena stood up.

"I love you Amanda." She says and my eyes got watery.

"I love you too." I whispered.

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"I hate this." Miranda says to Damon. "Mom can you cook?" Damon looked up and at first it looked like he seen a ghost.

"Hey." He says. I smiled and walked into the kitchen. I walked over to Miranda and gave her a kiss on her head. "How are-"

"Good." First lie of the day.

"Mom can you cook?" I looked down and seen she was eating a peanut butter and jelly sandwich.

"Yeah."

"So have you thought about college?" Elena says as she walked in fixing her hair." I don't think I can do this without Bonnie. What are you gonna cook?"

"I have no idea." I opened the fridge and started grabbing almost everything in sight." Why is there old egg nog..... you know what just forget about it."