Fate II ADOPTED BY SHANE DAWSON!!

The girl staring back

I feel my anxiety kick in as a familiar house comes to view. The house with no cars, no lights on,all abandoned and empty. My heart sinks at where we actually are, and I hoped to the lord I would never see this place again.

"We are here!" Nicole yells, showing no trace of sympathy."Mom is out back, dont worry."

I take a deep breath, glaring at Nicole. I can feel a panic attack, already on its way.

"Ni-Nicole.. I c-cant breathe.." I squeak out, expecting to see her laugh at my struggles.

But no, Nicole's expression changes immediately to the sister I knew. She reaches for my hand, holding it in hers,"Breathe for me, 1..2..3, 1..2..3-"

"Thank you. I thought I'd never see this place again." I say once I'm all collected.

As quick as it showed, Nicole takes one look at Lauren and goes back to her hostile self. I frown, getting out the car. Why does Nicole have to deal with this girl, it's obvious she still is the same. Nicole just doesn't know how to channel the emotions out..i think, or hope..

Nicole takes us to the back of the house, through some trees. It takes me awhile to realize where we're actually going until I see the gravestones ahead. My heart drops, how can I be so stupid. The family cemetery is out back, and it holds my father's grandparents, and my mother's grandparents. It goes on and on and on through the generations until it stops at my great, great, great Grandmother.

This isn't right.

"Nicole..i-I think I'm just going to look for mom inside.." I whisper.

I hear Lauren and Nicole snicker before,"Dont you see? Mom is dead!" I freeze, tears starting to escape my eyes."She killed herself two fucking months ago. Gosh, are you really that stupid of a whore?"

Tears role down my face and I start to shiver for no reason. I search the gravestone for my mother's name, hoping that this was all a joke. My blurred eyes land on one newly slabbed Grave stone;

Ellanore Oakly

June 27th 1987- 2018

Committed suicide.

I let out a sob and run once more, not knowing where I am going, but allowing my feet to carry me there. I hear a few laughs behind me, but I keep going and going, tears blurring my vision.

I love my mom still, I do, but seeing her leave me all alone in that horrible house...wasn't okay, at all. I needed a mother, and when I needed her the most, she disappears.

You have officially lost everyone that cares for you, now what are you going to do?

I don't know, is my answer. I don't know where my feet will take me, hopefully over a cliff to my death. Just. Like. Mom.

Shane

I drop Raven off at her house, saying the last goodbyes. Raven is a nice kid, very easy to make friends with. I made sure not to bring up what she did with Chris last night, I didn't want that to ruin her meet with Ryland and I. A pang of emptiness and regret hits me at the thought of Chris running at the door at what Ryland and I said this morning. I should have apologized, or at least told her no. I couldn't, I thought giving her space is going to help.

"But how much space is too much space, Shane?" I hear Ryland ask, after our argument about Chris flipping out. My response was of course, 'I dont know but we'll figure it out.'

But what if we never get to figure it out? What if Chris never comes back home tommorow?

My phone rings beside me and I click the button on my Jeep to answer the number. My breath catches in my throat at the familiar voice of Nicole. I haven't heard from her in awhile. I just assumed that she is still busy with school.