Chris
"Chris..wake up, we need to..er talk."
I slowly open my eyes, frowning at the harsh Los Angeles sunlight slicing through the room. My frown only deepens at the emptiness, and the longing of someone to fill it-Shane, Raven, even Ryland. Anyone but the immature blonde awkwardly trying to wake me up.
Last night, with raven...what did that even mean?
All I really know at this point, is that I liked it. Is it wierd to suddenly have a crush on your best friend, and then end up kissing her and letting her in the walls that I've built so high?
Yes, defiantly.
"Chris, please listen to me.." My eyes snap back to Morgan's worried expression. Her eyes look like she hasn't slept in weeks, not even bothering to fix it all up with concealer.
I roll my eyes."You didn't listen to me when I needed someone...anyone, last night." I mumble."instead, you ignored my pleads, and let Andrew have the final say of the situation."
Morgan sighs, her eyes getting more and more glassy at the moment.
"Christina-"
"No, I dont think you understand, Morgan." I start to sit up, a wave of nausea washes over me at how quickly I sat up."I've lost Shane, and Ryland- they were supposed to be mine. And they left me, because I was a whore with Nicole's girlfriend!"
I dont let the tears release as I keep going, I cant show her how much it hurt. "Last night, it all sunk in, and I felt so so bad about myself. I thought it went away, but it came back...it always does. "
"Chris, you are not a whore, its not your fault, stop saying that."
Morgan reaches out for a hug, but I pull away. I don't want her pity, I want love. I want someone to understand me. And the only person I had was Shane, but even he's gone.
"I didn't choose this, I cant just make it all go away." Then the tears betray me, and then I'm all in Morgan's arms again.
"hey, its okay..everything's going to work out perfectly, and Shane will be there for you, you know that."
I nod, wishing for Shane to come and get me. I know I've been trouble, but I just want everything to be alright, and how it used to be. Its not the same.
"I texted Shane after the thing last night, and he's not doing well at all. I think we should at least check on him, you down for it?" I nod, a smile placing on mg lips."okay, lets get going then. You can take whatever you want from my closet."
Wait.im not done yet. Except, it doesn't come out until Morgan is almost out the door.I sigh, its better now or never.
"hey Morgs.." I trail, fidgeting with Raven's twenty one pilots sweat shirt.
Morgan turns, her forever ocean blue eyes stare with concern.
"I-I.." My voice starts to crack at the next words."..i kissed Raven..last night.."
I dont look up at Morgan, feeling her icy eyes burn wholes in me. I can feel the disappointment, radiating off of her, making the whole situation even more intense.
"...And did you..er, like it? First kiss, right?" Her voice has no tone, nothing.
"Yes, I loved it...i love her." I take a gulp, the silence, and disappointment sinking in."I'm..bisexual, Morgan. I never would let myself conclude to it, but its who I am-"
"Just..just get showered and dressed for Shane, ok?" I watch as Morgan starts to leave, stopping at the door to look back at me."We can talk about this later.."
YOU ARE READING
Fate II ADOPTED BY SHANE DAWSON!!
FanfictionCheesy fanfic, Buckle your seatbelt shisters for a long emotional ride!!