Fate II ADOPTED BY SHANE DAWSON!!

"I need a break"

Shane

All I ever wanted was a family of my own, whether it be with Ryland or not. I wanted a small family that's filled with laughter and trust. I wanted a kid that shared the same traits as me, and we'd be so much alike. That's what I really dreamed of, other then the whole rise to fame dream.

Chris was this in so many ways. Ryland, Chris and I, became that family, and it was amazing in so many ways. Despite the ups and downs, we still came back to each other. I just never thought that Chris would be where she is now. She doesn't want to get help, she doesn't want to talk to me about it either. All she wants is to have a swing at the world.

And its not fair. Its not fair to Chris or me at all. I feel used, as if me trying to help Chris get out of this dark place was all for nothing. We used to be so close, and we used to tell each other everything. Now, we aren't anything like we used to be, and it fucking hurts.

"I need to talk to her, I fucked up." I mumble under my tears to myself.

I'm hurt, I need to take care of myself first.

My brain tells me to stay put in my bed, and to let Chris realize her wrong doing. She needs to acknowledge her depression, and her eating disorder that define her. That's not who she is when she's like that, why cant she see that? Why cant she just ask for help? Its okay to not be okay, but still ask for help.

There's a soft knock on the door, and I wipe my tears away quickly, expecting it to be Ryland. He never really understands this kind of stuff, so I don't really talk to him about it.

The door opens, revealing a Garrett holding a taco bell bag. I smile."..hey.."

He holds up the bag in my face."I brought these for you, I wanted to stop by for a bit."

Once there's no response from me, not even when I refuse to eat the taco bell I've been craving for the longest, Garrett finally gets the message. He frowns, concern filled in those brown hazel eyes.

"ughh, Shane!" Garrett says in that high pitch voice he gets whenever I make fun of his Harry Potter obsessions."How can you not resist Taco Bell? C'mon, its your favorite!"

I glare at the food, I dont deserve it. I deserve it as much as I deserve Chris, which is zero. She doesn't love me the same, and I know it. I've been a horrible Dad, so therefore I dont deserve to eat.

"Can I come over there on the bed with you, or would that be too wierd. I just want to give you a hug, you look sad."

I smile at his sweetness, always a bundle of joy."..fine..get over here."

Garrett engulfs me in a nice warm hug, pulling away in tears. I stare into his eyes wondering why the heck is he crying, but he stares into my eyes with something more. I lean in to him, closing my eyes, and connecting our lips together, slowly deepening the kiss.

"We shouldn't be doing this, you have Ryland." Garrett quickly pulls away, was that jealousy?

"Garrett, wait."

"Just make sure to eat properly, and to be there for Chris, she really needs you." Garrett leaves, shutting the door and blushing quickly.

I know that Garrett and I aren't together anymore, but why couldn't we follow through? Sometimes I wonder about that. Like, if Garrett and I wouldn't have broken up, would I still be blessed with the wonderful life I have now? Would I be able to have even got to adopt Chris?

Be there for Chris, she really needs you.

If she needed me, why didn't she come to me about the situation instead? I dont care about my career, family comes first.

I watch Garrett leave through the outside patio, from my mastery bedroom overlooking it. He stops by Chris, giving her a hug, but quick to leave, embarrassed.

Chris gets up from the sitting area, taking a glance around the house with her tear stained eyes. Her eyes land on me, but she quickly turns to leave the house as well. Wierd.

My mind tells me to go and get her, to say sorry. Except, I dont have that feeling anymore. I feel like Chris needs to figure this out on her own, she clearly doesn't need me.

"Shane, come look outside!" Ryland bursts into the room with a smile on his face. It slowly fades when it comes to my very depressed, and drained face.

I need to tell him, it'll tear us apart if we don't.

"I need to tell you-"

Morgan's excited scream from outside interrupts me, followed by a big creak of springs.

"She's trying to build a trampoline in the backyard for her channel. She wanted Chris to test it out, but we don't really know where she is. I was hoping you knew?"

My stomach growls as an answer, yelling for me to eat the now cold taco bell.

"That's, that's great.."

I can't tell him, but I love him. I dont want this relationship to end, it wouldn't be fair.

"Babe, are you ok?" Ryland glances at the Tacobell on the side of the bed."Here, eat."

"It's Chris, actually." I lie a little, ignoring the gesture to eat. Its not good for me anyways."I-I think its time for her...to take a break..."

Tears start to flow down my face as I say the next words." I need a break...she cant stay here anymore.."

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Ight this chap is actual trash, but I've really ran out of ideas, so........

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Next chap is going to be better-I promise. ;)