The Wonders Of Words

Explaining My Depression (Not my point of View)

I'm sorry
You think that I'm fine
But haven't you noticed my change in mood
And the way that I haven't been eating food
I'm depressed
It feels like I'm empty
Not just on the inside
But also on the outside
You've offered me therapy 
But how is that gonna help me
Depression is hard to get rid of
Its like your fading away
You feel like you're not loved
Its like a lion roaring
and never losing his voice
I'm the one they're not losing
And its not my choice
They won't let me go
And the demons are my lions
And I'm the voice
"You'll get over it" 
People say
But what do they know
They aren't the ones that are alone
How could you not tell me that I'm not worth it
That I'm a waste of space
Because we all know its true
We all know you think it too
I thought it was just my home
I thought that it was just school
But it wasn't
I want to run away
But you can't run away from the demons inside
Depression is like falling into water
but with a weight on your ankle
pulling you down towards the bottom
And with every breath you take
It hurts
Depression is like getting hit by a car
It hitting you in the face like a brick
Something that you can't control
And you get scars and bruises 
And some don't ever heal
Depression is like hell
Everywhere you walk
It feels as if you are burning
Being hurt all the time
And feeling unbelievable misery
"Why do you do this to yourself?"
People have asked
Why haven't you
I know why
You never had this feeling
Never felt like you're drowning
And slowly dying
You don't know what its like
To never be happy
To fake a smile so people don't know
Telling yourself that you're okay
But really, you aren't
Can you explain to me what happy is like
I don't remember
I haven't been happy for so long
And not many people know whats wrong
Stop giving me sympathy
And your pity
That's not what I need
And neither is therapy
What I do need
Is you to help me