Love Found In the Contract

CHAPTER TWO🦋

 Mark's P.O.V. 🐇--- three days before the wedding

It's hard. Pretending that everything is fine is very hard. Looking around my own apartment, my things are now being moved into a house for my husband and me. I hate it. I worked so hard to have my own place and my own things. But what does it all matter now? What do all the hours spend working none stop, without eating a sleeping? What does it matter now, all those days spent eating nothing but milkless cereal and cup noodles for two years straight? If I had known that everything, I worked for will be taken away from me, I would have let them do all the heavy liftings.

I should have let them do all the work and pay for every expensive thing. I should have let them pay for all my trips and school. All those student loans should have been paid by them and not me. It should have been paid by them. But even then, I don't think that it will be enough for what they are doing now.

Putting me through all this suffering! All this trouble! I hate it. I want to go back to a time where things were simpler, and I felt like the world was mine to conquer.

"Sir, we have finished with the packing and loading, is there anything else that we could help you with?"

"No, thank you." My mother asks, although the question was addressed to me and not her.

But what does it matter, since she along with my father have regained their power over my life? From my first memories to my graduation from high school, they had control over my every move.

Well except when I went over to Korea and had the time of my life with a nerdy boy. He was and still is the only one that has captivated my heart. When I asked him to be my date, I did not intend for it to be in a romantic way, but that's how it ended up being. I just wanted him to accompany me to the party, have some drinks and a good time. But then we began dancing. we didn't even drink. No alcohol in our systems.

We just danced and one thing led to another. But it was the best night of my life.

"Mark, I know you are less than pleased with all of this but look at it on the bright side. Our family fortune will increase and----"

"Mother if you are done, I'll like to check if everything has been taken"

without waiting for her response, I quickly go up the second floor.

The second floor is---was my favorite thing about this house. It had the perfect view of the city. I have never been a city person, but its view has always captivated me. It looked so peaceful from here, even though that's far from the truth when you are physically there.

The sky suddenly turns grey and raindrops fall, Usually, I will sit by this very window sipping some tea while sitting in my black loveseat. But now I'm here without a loveseat nor a cup to make coffee on.

Jinyoung's P.O.V.🍑

The city is boring and there is really nothing to see other than cars and buildings. Korea was more colorful but here it's dull.

"Sir we have arrived"

"Thank you"

After paying him I enter the building with my small luggage in hand, and faster than I could place a step inside a woman with a red knee-length dress approached me with a wide smile.

"Hello, Mr. Park, my name is Rose and I have been asked by chief Park to look over you while you are staying with us. Is there anything that I can help you with?"

Shacking my head I smile at her and walk away

"Mr—Mr. Park, please wait, Mr.---"

Shacking my head, I pressed the last floor on the elevator. As the door closes, I see how she angrily walks away. I don't need her to watch over me. I haven't needed anyone in a long time. I practically raised myself.

My parents never gave me money for school or for food. They were just there in the background as I struggled but when there was something that they wanted and needed me to get it. Then they were all over me loving and caring. It was always like that. Once they will get their damn money, they will toss me aside to deal with the consequences. It's always like that.

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One day before

I'm scared. I'm scared that I'll be unhappy. That I will get beaten up by him. That I will get humiliated by his family and by him.

I don't want any of the above but why does it feel like it cannot be avoided. Being a man, woman, who is attracted to the same gender is hard. It's hard to find a partner. It's hard to find someone attractive because you don't know whether or not they will be interested in you or whether they will be grossed out by you. When you are attracted to the opposite gender it is easier to go to a bar and find someone to spend the time with. Its easier to flirt and go on a date without being judged because people will not judge you or refuse to serve you. When you are straight you don't have to worry about losing friends and family because they are disgusted by you and your sexuality.

When you are straight you can go to your parents with your partner in hand and just introduce them. You don't have to worry about whether or not your sexual preferences will have an impact on whether or not you get to have a job, apply for a job. You don't have to worry about getting beat up at school just because you like people of your same gender.

But that does not mean that I think that straight people have it easier, I just mean that society accepts them more and like them more than those who are different.

Society is very funny to me. It hates changes and individuality although it has many advertisements that want you to embrace yourself and show it to the world. And then with all the stereotypes and how if you don't fit into them then you have failed at being gay, lesbian, part of the LGTBQ community.

Anything you do, what you do, and who you are is always being judged and looked down upon if you failed that meeting those stupid standards that they have somehow formed. Because everyone is the same, right?

Tossing the glass cup on the dark grey wooden floor I let out a laugh. A laugh not of happiness but rather of annoyance. How can someone live in society and be happy when they are always pointing accusing fingers from left to right. 

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Thank you for reading. 

I'm so sorry that it has taken me months to publish the second chapter but it has been a crazy couple of weeks. I hope that you enjoy this chapter and please comment your thoughts because  I really like to read them.