BTS Kidnapped - Faces In The Mirror

Chapter 27 - I Am Wrong

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Tape recorder -> press Play to start.

Click. Tape rolling.

-Welcome patients 319, this is Jung Hoseok speaking.
-I know, hello Hoseok.
-This evaluation will be recorded, like any other we've done before.
-Okay.
-So first order of business, can you answer some of my questions?
-Of course.
-Name?
-Y/N.
-Full sentences, please.
-My name is Y/N.
-Age?
-I'm 20 years old, almost 21.
-Yes almost huh? Next month you'll turn 21.
-Yeah.
-Are you excited?
-I'm finally going to be my own person again.
-Do you think you're capable of that?

Long pause.

-I don't know, it's scary.
-Why is it scary?
-Because you guys won't be there to help me.
-Does that scare you?
-I'll have to do everything on my own, which scares me a little since I've been wanting that for so long, and now, it will finally happen. What if I looked out towards something that I actually don't like at all? I won't be able to go back to this place.
-Do you think you're ready to go?
-I hope so, Jungkook says so.
-Okay, good, that's good. Let's change the topic really quick.
-Okay.
-This is a monthly evaluation, so my question to you is, how did this month go?
-I had to go to isolation.
-why did you have to go there?
-I got angry again.
-Why did you get angry?
-You guys wanted to destroy my book.
-Which made you angry.
-Yes.
-What did you do to go to isolation?
-I yelled swearwords at Jungkook and as he left I threw chairs around.
-do you regret hurting him?
-I didn't hurt him...

Long pause.

...not physically.
-Have you talked about it with him?
-Yes and I apologized for it. I didn't want to get angry, it just happened and I regret it.
-Was that the only slip up this month?
-Yes, I believe so.
-Jungkook has given me your records of this month and indeed, that was the only thing he wrote down. He praised your eating. Have you been eating well?
-Yes, I tried really hard this month.
-Good, do you feel better?
-Yes, I do, I'm stronger and I'm not so sleepy anymore.
-Good, so...

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...next month is your release month like we discussed. Is there something you want to practice your last month here?
-Control my emotions.
-Do you mean your anger?
-No, all emotions.
-Explain.
-I want to get rid of the feelings I have towards all the caregivers. I want to be able to be my own human when I get released. I don't want to be like, 'what would Jungkook tell me to do?'
-Ah I see, is that what you mean with feelings?
-I don't know, I think so. This is hard.
-I understand, do you need some time to think about this?
-Yea... I think I'll be able to explain myself better when I write it down.
-Okay, here you go...

Paper ruffling.

...write everything down about your feelings and any other things you feel like I need to know for this month okay? Hand it to Jungkook, he'll make sure I receive it.
-Okay.
-Okay, I'll sign your evaluation papers for this month. You can go ahead and meet Yoongi for your weekly outside trip.
-Thank you Hoseok.
-You're welcome Y/N. Bye-bye.