Umpteen Disadvantages of Being Awesome

Disadvantage 3 - Not Caring Enough

Disadvantage 3 - Because your 'awesome' personality makes you not care about most people's crap, your friend thinks you don't care about them enough.

"All the best Beck." Geny said and then hugged me tight for quite a time. "You know you're great and you'll rock it." Next was Racheal, she also wished me best and said not to give a care and dance my heart out.

After them both Lize came to me. "You give your best. Marc ain't gonna be there."

And sometimes I just don't get it how she knows the exact thing I am thinking. How she knows what exactly I want to hear.

"Gear up bud I know you'll do your best . Now, I've to make sure Marc ain't there."  Then she turned her heels and went away. There were these two girls who had their audition before me. I actually wasn't anxious about the audition, it was just Marc. I don't think I can handle him sitting over there. I mean I don't even know if anyone will be sitting over there except Mrs. Hooch and her camera.

"Holly."

Okay. Okay. I'm next. Yeah this is going well. This will go well. Costume in accordance to routine ? ( Tank top and cargo trouser ) Check. Pen drive with the song ? Check. Dance steps ? Yep yep going through all the steps yeah I remember, Check.

Its weird. I should be more focused toward my performance but all I can visualize is, is Marc. I thought I had convinced myself about having no more feelings for him but he was the first damnit. Its just seems easy but isn't. People think its like :

"Hey! I love you."

"I love you too but I'll kiss other girls."  

"Oh. I don't like that. I hate you."

"Okay then."

"Alright then."

Yeah. Wish it could be just that easy

"Alarice."

Fuck the world. I'm going to dance and no one can trouble my mind at that precise time. Except Marc...I guess ? No.

I entered from the wings to the stage. A sigh of relief escaped me as I saw the auditorium empty. Foolish to think student would be there. I caught Mrs Hooch's eye, she was already smiling at me and then suddenly me eyes rested on Alan who was beside her, setting camera stand.

Mrs. Hooch took her mike and said "Alarice, I suppose you've given your pen drive to the guy back stage." I had. I vigorously nodded. "Alan are you ready ? Yeah. Alarice on the count of three." Alan fixed the camera finally and sat beside Mrs. Hooch, a sheet in hand.

Well there wasn't much time to think about him so I concentrated on my performance.

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"You loser. What did I say ? Marc won't be there and so won't be any other students." Lize started calling out on me.

"It was only Marc, do you think I would've been too shy to perform infront of students ? Huh."

"But Marc! Get over. He sucks."

I shifted my attention towards Geny merely because I had nothing to say in my defence. Looking up at her bright face, she was excited about something.

"You know Alan was also taking the auditions." She said, her face radiating her excitement.

"Yeah, I saw him with camera but auditions too ?"

"He's a freakin' all rounder. Is there something he can't do ? Boy, he's so cute and I  mean he's not even a nerd but manages to piss off every aspiring topper."