Not a Phase ⛅️ [Tenya Iida Fanfic]

C.19 "It's a white carnation,"

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2:09 a.m

recently in my new relationship with Tenya, theres been new 'feelings'/'experiences'. & i feel like certain things are a bit awkward between us? Like we dont really know what to do during certain moments. & unfortunately the air gets flooded with our nervous tension & stuff...

for example:
at the end of a date, should we kiss or hug?or just do nothing at all? things like that. i dont know what Tenya would do either. although we only had 2 dates so far and a billion random short meetings, but we constantly text each other.

either way we do end up relaxing and having fun. i guess sometimes we get awkward cause this relationship is new for us?? I think.

Honestly it's been a while seen ive been in a relationship. & its pretty obvious that this is Tenya's 1st one.  so we might be a bit weird or different when handling certain situations.

but I'm really enjoying this new relationship (aside from the awkwardness), I promise you that! & I know that Tenya wouldn't just randomly abandon me. plus, I don't think he'd have any reasons to.

No one would mock our relationship would they? If they do im going to shit my sweatpants and call bullshit on their mocking. (If that makes any sense cause it does in my brain) anyways, that's all I have for now. It's 2:12 AM & im still awake cause i just finished revising eng. & thats why todays update is pretty short.

So yea. goodnight world

You closed your journal and rubbed your eyes.

You started to tidy up.

Clearing and stacking up the prep books that were scattered all over your desk, you sighed and turned off your desk's light switch.

'I'll return those prep books to the library tomorrow I guess.'
You thought to yourself.

You took off your hairband and brushed your hair. You walked over to your bed, with the only light source in your room being your night-lamp.

'Being alive is so exhausting.'

You tossed yourself onto your huge bed. You slammed your face onto one of your many soft pillows that had feathers stuffed inside of them.

Switching off your night lamp, you pulled your blanket out and covered every inch of yourself (excluding your head) with it. The velvety blanket was so soft and warm, silky even. And very cozy.

Almost like a cloud.

You closed your eyes. After a few seconds,
you realised how quiet the room was.
And that silence, well, was not entirely new to you.

You felt...lonely.

Although what was new? 50% of the time you always felt lonely. Even though you had Fuji; you still felt emotionally lonely at home.

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The bell had its final ring.