My Brothers Friend || Zach Herron

Only Way

Through out the day the account gained hundreds of likes and followers. Many of the comments were very hurtful saying how I was a slut and needed to just leave, the boys lives and this world in general.
I was staring at the comments just roll in as Zach got ready for bed.
"Babe" Zach half yelled as he flopped down on me, pulling me from my thoughts
"Oh my gosh!" I quickly locked my phone and placed it on the night stand with one hand and pushed Zach off of me with the other.
"No stop!" He grabbed my arm and pulled himself back up on me
"Whyyyyy" I moaned
"Cause I love you" he snuggled into my lap and we both settled down
"I love you to" we sat there for a few minutes and just enjoyed each other company "ok get off" I pushed him off of me once again.
"Whatever, you weren't very comfortable anyway" he grumbled as he brought his head to his own pillow instead of my legs
"Yeah whatever" I leaned over and turned of the lamp that was the only thing giving off light in the room at the moment.
I placed my chest in Zach's shoulder and closed my eyes "oh but you get to lay on me" I heard Zach say.
"Yes, that's the way it works" I smiled as I spoke
"Whatever, good night" I barely heard him say cause I was really close to sleep.
***
I woke up and Zach's side of the bed was cold. I opened my eyes and proved my thoughts correct, no Zach.
Zach wasn't the neatest person so there was always hoodies and sweats just laying around for the taking. After throwing on a Herron hoodie and some navy blue sweats I walked down stairs.

"Guys, my head really hurts, it's been hurting for a while" Jonah was saying as I walked into the living room where everyone else is "I don't know what it is. I have tried pills but they only work for about an hour. I think I'm dying" the boys started laughing
"Well maybe it's because of you lack of sleep" Corbyn managed to get out "what did you do last night when we all went to bed?"
"Read Harry potter" Jonah said kinda embarrassed
"Could be you screen time, you have always been on your phone" Daniel spoke up.
"Have not" Jonah protested. Just then Jonah's phone went off and his hand shot out and grabbed it without hesitation. Jonah stared at his phone and laughed then put his phone down.
"You haven't had water lately, that could also be a reason" I said. Jonah picked up his Starbucks coffee that he must have gotten when I was still asleep, he brought it to his lips and sipped on it
"Maybe, but I guess we will never know" he got up and left, a few moments later he came back with some Aleve. We all just waved him off and went on doing our own thing.
***
I texted devan about half an hour ago cause all the boys were being boring. We made plans to meet at the mall at 3. It was currently 1:45
He had a video to film so he couldn't hang until later which sucked.
I decided to take a shower cause I was pretty gross. When I got in the shower I had forgotten about the cuts on my arms as the water rush down my arms I felt a sting pain shoot through my veins recently I have started to cut myself because it helped numb the pain when I went through the Instagram page, the Instagram page had turned into more than just an account on Instagram I had started getting DM's that were full of nasty comments and threatening words I haven't told Zach I felt like he had so much on his plate already that he didn't need something as small as me getting hate from fans it just seemed so silly to worry him about this.
Imma strong girl I can handle things like this I just handle them in my own way this was my way
***
" hey Devan! I haven't seen you in so long how have you been" I hugged devan as I entered the mall food court
I have been good how are you I heard your dating Zack now is that correct I secretly always shipped you guys"
" OMG yeah we started dating about a while ago it's been amazing I'm really happy I finally admitted to myself that I liked him in fact we just told the fans the other day"
" that's good I'm happy to hear that you are happy and doing well we really need to hang out more"
" yes we do what haven't we" we started walking around
" I don't know it's not like we both have been busy I mean I have Collins channel but I am just a feature I'm not on it constantly, so I'm always free" we laughed and looked at stuff.
***
When I got home I realized that the house was strangely silent. I turned around and looked in the driveway and realize that the van was gone wow great, I thought myself they just left me here. I walked into the kitchen and saw note tape to the fridge going to Chipotle text me what you're order is by 6:30 or you are on your own for dinner- love the boys

I looked at the clock on the microwave and saw that it was 6:15 so I pulled my phone out and texted Jonah that I wanted a chicken burrito with white rice and black beans with extra miled queso and no salsa. The minute I set my phone down on the counter it began to ring I thought that it was Jonah texting me back about the dinner but when I picked it up I saw it it was a blocked ID someone must have called me from with *67.
I slowly answer the call and said
" hello this is y/n besson, who is this?"
I waiting for them to speak
" you need to break up with Zack you are such a slut and a hoe how can Zach love you, like that first Jack now Zach let me guess and 3 months you're going to be with Jonah, I mean you seemed pretty close with Jonah the other day on Instagram also the fact that you were just out with Devan when all the boys were at Chipotle, does Zach know that you were with Devan you seemed really cozy with him, that hug lasted pretty long so I don't know maybe Zach would love to hear the fact that you're cozying up to some other YouTube star. so why don't you back off of Zach and go back to the little dirty hole that you came from bitch because no one here wants you, Zach is dating you out of Pity I am pretty sure that he doesn't love you" then they hung up.
The tears pushed against my eyes and spilled onto the counter.
Now they are watching me when I leave the house, how the heck did this person see me with Devan, and get my number. Why did they have to call and say those things.
I ran to my room and cried into my pillow. I slowly got up and went into the bathroom, I locked the door in case the boys got home early. I grabbed the scissors I had hidden at the bottom of my makeup box.
This is the only way I can get the pain to leave, the only way I can feel something other than guilt.