My Brothers Friend || Zach Herron

What If I Never Get Over You

I havnt really left my room these last few days, mostly writing songs. I don't know how it's been so easy to write lately but the words have just been flowing out of me.
I wrote a for me and Zach to sing as well as one for me and Corbyn, I only had the first couple lines, it started as a love song but when I ended it with Zach it took a turn and was a kinda of miss you song. I think dave would really like it, the only problem is that it still has Zach's part in it and I don't know what to do. Maybe Corbyn could do it?
All the guys have been really understanding about this whole thing, giving me my space but yet still being there and making sure I was ok, the only downside is I haven't been able to shave since they found out cause they took all my razors.
Me and Zach are pretty much back to square one again, walking around the house acting like we are both perfectly fine with being just friends, when deep down it killed both of us to not be with each other. It was getting easier as the days go by but not much.
***
I was sitting in Dave's office trying to figure out new songs for my upcoming show and release.
"I feel like you should still play You Belong With Me obviously, but I would need hear your new ones again to decide" Dave was sorting through sheet music I had brought with me.
"I was also wondering about those last two songs in your hand, they are meant to be duets, like we discussed with Atlantic records." I pointed out, still wondering how those songs would play into my EP. I felt like they were some of my best but that duet thing might be a problem
"Ahh yeah you wanted to do one with you boyfriend Zach and were thinking of one with your brother correct?" He looked at me over the top of his glasses.
"Yeah that's what I was thinking but umm Zach and I are kinda on a break so I didn't know if I should do the original song or a new one?"
He stared at me for a moment while thinking
" This is what I'm thinking, we do a duet with Zach, neither of these songs though, I want a new one, how you really feel about your guys situation" I got a sick feeling in my stomach "one of those classic break up/ lasting love songs ya know, and then we can work him into it for a duet. As for these two songs, I will work on finding someone to collab with for this one" he held up one of my best songs in my opinion " and this one, I will work on seeing if you could have all of the boys singing back up on it" I sighed in relief as week as fear cause I haven't done a collab yet, definitely not a love song with an ex.
"Yeah that sounds great, I will work on that new song" I smiled and stood
"And I will working on getting a hold of the boys manager" he stood up and we still hands "This is going to be a great first EP. The duets and collaborations will really boost the publicity, trust me"
I walked to the door and practically ran to my car once I was out of that building.
While driving I was running through what I could write that song with Zach about, I wanted it to be relatable to everyone, but not to generic. Something that wasn't exactly about me and Zach but still explained everything I was feeling.
Once I got home I called Corbyn up to my room and told him everything "so basically we get to do a collab if your manager says its ok" I was half squealing from excitement.
"I don't see why he wouldn't say yes, what song are we going to do?" he was ready to see the song right then and there, I rarely ever show people songs before they are released, mainly because I have a feeling that if someone other then dave gives commentary on them I will change my mind and screw the whole song up by trying to rewrite it, so its best to just go with my gut. I sighed and pulled out the sheet music, its Corbyn, nothing is going to go wrong.
I handed it over and he read it deeply, trying to figure it out in his head and before long he was already humming and mumbling words. It honestly felt great hearing him go through it like that.

it's supposed to hurt, it's a broken heart
But to movin' on is the hardest part
It comes in waves, the letting go
But the memory fades, everybody knows
Everybody knows What if I'm tryin', but then I close my eyes
And then I'm right back, lost in that last goodbye?
And what if time doesn't do what it's supposed to do?
What if I never get over you? Maybe months go by, maybe years from now
And I meet someone and it's workin' out
Every now and then, he can see right through
'Cause when I look at him
Yeah, all I see is you What if I'm tryin', but then I close my eyes
And then I'm right back, lost in that last goodbye?
And what if time doesn't do what it's supposed to do?
What if I never get over you? Ooh yeah
I close my eyes
And then I'm right back, lost in that last goodbye
And what if time doesn't do what it's supposed to do?
What if I never get over you?
What if I gave you (what if I gave you) everything I got?
What if your love was my one and only shot?
What if I end up with nothing to compare it to
What if I never get over? Oh, if I never get over
What if I never get over you? What if I never get over you?
Oh, what if I never get over?
Over you

"I think this is great, the boys are gonna love it!" he gave me a huge hug "I'm so proud of you y/n, you have come so far, honestly"
"Don't start getting all mushy on me bean" I giggled, feeling the weight being lifted.
"I'm thinking of doing this one with Zach to be honest" Corbyn's smile faded a little
"Do you think that's best?" He looked a little worried
"Dave said he wanted a lot of emotion with our duet and I really think this song is going to be the best one" I started feeling that weight again whether I was gonna be able to do it or not now. This is why I don't share my songs. 
"what one are we doing?" he looked eager again, I laughed and went through my papers and pulled out a song I think would sound best with me, Corbyn and the boys in. 
Corbyn read over it and smiled at me with a bigger smile then before.
"I cant believe these y/n, these are amazing" he gave me a huge hug and put the papers back in the stack. "I'm gonna go see what the plans are for dinner"
"Cool" he walked out the door and I just stared at the sheet music.
I just leaned back and sorted through the papers and smiling to myself. There was a time where writing songs hurt me emotionally, that was only a few weeks ago, it still hurts some times but these past few days it's been the release I need rather than my arms.
There was a knock on my door and then Zach's head popped in.
"Hey y/n" he smiled his flashy smile "I just heard about our possible collab, I'm excited!" He yelled and ran away as I sat there giggling on my bed.
I looked down at the song I wrote about Zach, What If I Never Get Over You