do I really hate you? || Max and Harvey Mills

eleven; a week

ash's pov
it's been a week. a whole damn week. harvey's moved to his new school and i haven't left my room. TJ found out about everything that happened in the past, the bullying, the hurting, the depression, everything. mum and dad never told him about anything that happened at my old schools, they would always say i'm lying, even when the doctors told them i was depression and i needed medication they just said i was lying. they don't care about me, they never have and never will. that's the main reason i go to live with TJ some times. he said that if he ever saw his old roommates again they would be dead, i have a feeling he means it. he also is making me get to the doctors tomorrow because i'm 'unstable' it's not the best feeling having my brother call me unstable but i guess he's just showing he cares.

harvey's messaged me multiple times but i haven't replied once, why would i. he hurt me. a lot. as for max he comes and sees me everyday since harvey and i broke up. we don't really talk, he just comes to make sure i haven't done anything bad and to give me my school work since i haven't gone in a while.

you may think i'm over reacting and it's just a break up but this isn't even all because of the break up. sometimes i get this way, i get sad, i don't leave my room for at least a week, i don't eat much, i don't sleep either. i spend a lot of time crying and overthinking. i try my best not to hurt myself and i haven't yet this time but you never know what might happen. i never know what might happen. life is so stupid and i don't see a point to it.

i check the time and realise it's 2am, i decide that i should go back to school since i'm knew and i've only been there for like 2 months. i close my phone and pulls the blankets over myself letting my very heavy eyes close and me sleep for the first time in days. dreading the next day and everything coming with it.

hi this is kinda just a filler because i don't really know what to write so um yeah cya