do I really hate you? || Max and Harvey Mills

thirteen; happy birthday

my eyes slowly drift open, i look around letting my eyes adjust to the bright lights of the hospital room. my eyes slowly land on max and as he notices i'm awake his lips curve into a slight smile.

"hi shorty" his voice was soft and soothing, "i'm glad you're awake." a warm smile fully spreads across his face, i smile to myself but then begin to frown as i realise why i'm here.

"h-how long have i been here?" my voice came out softer and weaker than i intended.

"only a few hours, you had a anxiety attack so we brought you here" i nodded in response and closed my eyes again letting myself drift back to sleep as i was exhausted.

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i opened my eyes to max jumping on my bed excitedly. "HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHORTY!" he screamed at the top of his lungs. i couldn't help but chuckle. it had been over a year since the day i officially got diagnosed with depression along with other illnesses and max was still my best friend and as for harvey i hadn't spoken to him since he told me about his girlfriend little rough but i guess i kinda pushed him to the side and focused on max.. for best friend purposes only, promise..

"what are you doing in my room? why so early? who let you in? couldn't you wait until i woke up at my own pace?" he ignores all my questions and opened the blinds to my room letting the harsh light shine in and hurt my eyes "maxxxxxx!" he laughs at my response then sits on my bed becoming a little more serious as i sat up.

"ash harvey wants to call you for your birthday and i kinda told him you would talk to him" my face drops.

"not today please max i don't wan-" i'm interrupted by his phone ringing i desperately shake my head no signally him to not pick it up.

"hey harvey" max puts it on speaker with me still shaking my head.

"hey max can i talk to ash now?" a familiar voice spoke up, i had spent a whole year trying to erase that voice from my memories and now it's back.

"uhhh i'm not at her house" harvey was obviously not convinced

"am i on speaker? hi ash i miss you, happy birthday" i stare at max hoping he'll just hang up but after a few seconds i knew he wouldn't.

"h-hi harvey" i eventually manage to choke out ignoring his comment about missing me. "how's your girlfriend? how's school?" as i say girlfriend we hear some shuffling on the other end.

"she's great, it's been a year and 2 weeks since we got together and i love her a lot, schools also pretty good i'm topping all my classes..." my heart sinks as he says he loves her, i would say i'm over harvey but he was the first guy i loved and that's not something i can let go of easily. i zoned out while harvey was talking about school but zoned back in when i heard another voice. a girls voice.

"baby you're doing amazing also you're forgetting to mention that you got an all rounder award at the end of last year" katie basically whined.

"oh yeah i forgot about that thanks princess" you could practically hear how much harvey was smiling  and as much as i wanted to be happy for him. for them. i couldn't. but as much as i wanted to hate her, i couldn't. she seemed nice and i can't just hate her because she's dating him. once again my thoughts were interrupted by katie.

"ash, harvey's told me so much about you! it's cute that you had a little crush on him, sucks that he only saw you as a sister though.." i choked like tf? what you means sister.

"a crush?" i questioned, "do you not know that we dated?"

"oh ash do you really think that was real, harvey was just trying to be nice to you that's why he said yes when you begged him" i take back what i said before i hate her. i hate her a lot.

"harvey, what the fuck did you tell her? you asked me out, i was the one who didn't say yes, i made you wait and if i recall, you were the one to say i love you first!" harvey mumbles something about he never told her that's what happened and how she knows how he asked me and all these other things and if he did tell her that then why is she saying all this. after a while of silence katie speaks up again.

"c'mon we all know you didn't deserve harvey i mean i've seen photos you aren't exactly the prettiest." this bitch is going toooooo far even harvey told her to stop a couple times. "you wouldn't even be able to get a boyfriend if you tried" i was over it so i quickly changed the call to a facetime and sat max's phone where they could see most of my room just to make sure they got the full image of what was about to happen.

"oh really? sorry to tell you love but i have a boyfriend and he's a much better boyfriend and kisser then harvey could ever be" i quickly moved onto max's lap, wrapping my legs around his waist, using one hand to cup his cheek and the other resting on his neck. i glanced at the phone giving harvey and katie the smuggest look i could then turned back to max and kissed him. i assume max caught on to what i was doing because he wrapped his arms around me and kissed back. i wanted to make it as believable as i could so i slipped in a little tongue and max did the same. it escalated quickly to the point that max and i were sitting there making out while katie and harvey watched, i meant to pull away earlier but i kinda got caught up in the kiss and didn't want to pull away. i didn't realise this till now but max really was a better kisser then harvey. max and i kept kissing until harvey started talking which made me pull away i had to bite my lip to keep away the massive smile that threatened to spread across my face.

"you two are dating?!?! since when?!" i quickly caught my breath from all the kissing and made up some story on how we started dating a month ago and that i didn't tell him because i don't talk to him about normal things so why would i tell him about my relationship i said that we hadn't really told anyone yet so it didn't matter. i told them that we had to go because we had something planned for my birthday and this was keeping us waiting so i hung up and looked at max.

"well that was.. something." i couldn't help but laugh at max's reaction.

"i'm sorry i did that without warning it's just she was really pissing me off and i wanted to prove her wrong" i looked down realising i was still in max's lap but i didn't get out yet.

"it's fine, i didn't mind" he gave my a reassuring smile then quickly changed his expression to a smirk and raised his eyebrow "soooo i'm a better kisser than harvey hey"

i laughed, got out of his lap and threw a pillow at him. "shut upppppppp"

"okay okay, no need to attack" he chuckled than looked at me "so what are we going to do now?" i gave him a puzzled look so he continued. "well now harvey thinks we're dating and there's no doubt he's gonna tell our mum" i mumbled a cuss not thinking of that. "well i have an idea but you probably won't like it"

"tell me, we have to do something" at this point i was up for any suggestions.

"what if we pretended to date in front of everyone so then harvey and katie will think it was real because harvey will snoop and ask people around school if we act like we're dating so we may as well"

"as long as nothing goes.. weird between as" he nods "promise?"

"promise."

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HIIIII SOOOO THIS IS TOTALLY NOT WHAT I HAD PLANNED FOR THIS BOOK AND NOW THE TITLE DOESNT REALLY FIT BUT OH WELLL LETS SEE WHAT HAPPENS ALSO SORRY THIS TOOK SO LONG TO POST I WROTE IT LIKE A WEEK AGO AND FORGOT ABOUT IT WHOOPSSSS ALSO SORRY ABOUT ALL THE TIME JUMPING IVE DONE IN THIS BOOK ANDDDD SORRY FOR LAST CHAPTER I WASNT IN A GOOD MINDSET WHEN I WROTE THE ENDING AND IT GOT REALLY FULL ON BUT I DON'T KNOW WHAT I COULD CHANGE IT TOO AND MAKE IT STILL FIT WITH THIS CHAPTER SO ITS STAYING LIKE THAT FOR NOW ALSO PLEASE VOTE ALSO ALSO I SAY ALSO A LOT