~Poem Book~

Re-Re-Rewind

Through my eyes, I can see all-

your, your, your, lies.

Seeing as we only get one life, why did you have to stab me in my stomach with a knife?

I fell to the ground in a heap, staring up at the distant, dissolving ceiling.

Your face in a smile as I leave this world, "It's okay"

is it?

So now I'm going to re-re-rewind,

Giving up on any hope that I once thought I had, and grasping the pain with my bare hand.

Gaining any hope I once had, stabbing my pain in the stomach once driven me mad.

In the past, my life was just copacetic.

Now I wish I could forget it.

Driven to madness to self-murder by the pain,

Sometimes as I look up at the decision, the dissolving skies that I created.

The pain i could've stopped, the life I could have had.

However now, we're here, as I see kids stroll by.

The lives they have, the families that smile on them, if only that smile I could steal for myself.

The world is splattered in red and black, and you are colorblind to my heart.

All you see is what you choose, red is a color you never use.

Forevermore, may I lay cursed in your path of roses and a solid, distant perjury.

Fading with the ceiling I once looked upon.

The world is splattered in red and blue, and you are colorblind to my lungs.

All you see is the phone that never once rung, the lungs I never use.

Someday, I want to be reborn, please give me the distant, dissolving sky that I so long craved once more.

Maybe in another life, I'll see her again

However, now i'm at my final dead-end.

As my re-wind flies by, I look onto those dissolving, red skies.

Goodbye.