dear diary—
i cut again today.
not on the outside of my arm, where i usually do, but on the soft inside, where my arm bends.
it didn't bleed.
i just got a welt there, showing irritation.
i had a panic attack right after i cut. my chest got all tight, and i kinda wanted to cry.
i feel so fucking guilty for relapsing again.
i feel so fucking guilty for wanting it to bleed, for wanting to cut again just so i could see the blood well up on my skin.
and i did.
i cut again, right next to the previous cut, and i watched the blood slowly seep out of the cut.
i'm kind of scared of cutting.
cutting too much, too long, too deep.
cutting a vein by accident.
bleeding out.
my parents or friends discovering that i'm cutting again.
but i'm not scared enough to stop.
fuck.
i'm such a fuck up.
—daniel
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catharsis.
Romance"dear diary- corbyn is a refreshing beam of light in the dark familiarity of our small town. i hope he stays forever. -daniel" daniel is given a diary by his best friend zach, in which he writes out his innermost thoughts, struggles, and feelings. h...
