liar (shizaya)

Chapter 5: Love

(A/N: I decided to remake chapter 5 so here it is. another update coming very soon)

Love.

Love is an intense feeling of deep affection.

Love could be shown to a family member, the person youre dating or married, or a friend, or anyone in general.

Love makes people happy.

.....

Well for some people it didnt.

People like Izaya Orihara.

He hated love.

He grew up with hate, to hate.

Izaya never understood love.

He never loved anyone. Not even his own parents.

Izaya never understood how to love.

He tried.

He tried to love, but they never loved him back.

When he first fell in love, he fell in love badly.

But there was a problem.

They didnt love him back.

They messed with him.

They ruined him.

Love really fucks you up.

Izaya hated love since then.

He despised it.

His thoughts teased him.

"Your alone!"

"Nobody loves you!"

"Nobody will ever love you!"

They laughed at him.

They laughed at him as he cried himself to sleep.

They laughed at him as he hugged himself.

They laughed at him as he broke down.

Izaya started to love again, but this time differently.

He started to love humanity.

He started to love all humans equally.

He started to love them as much as they hated him.

Oh, but this love was different.

It was twisted.

He brought pain to them.

He started to mess with their lives.

It was a sick entertainment, but he enjoyed it.

Oh how much he loved it.

The thoughts started to leave his head as his love for humans grew.

So he turned it to an obsession.

He made sure he loved them all equally.

He didnt want to love one human more than the other. That would be unfair.

But in reality it wasnt just because it was unfair.

If he loved one more than the other that would mean he actually had feelings for them.

It would mean he fell in love again.

Izaya didnt want to ever fall in love. He feared it.

Who knew Izaya Orihara was scared of love?

But why?

It was simple.

He just didnt like the feeling.

He hated the pain it brought to him.

Sad how such little thing like love defeated Izaya.

And Izaya hated the feeling of defeat.

He hated the humiliation it brought to him.

He hated the taunts his thoughts gave to him.

He hated it all.

There is nothing else to it.

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11:25 PM

"That stupid flea doesnt know when to stop messing with people!"

I started to light up a ciggarette to calm myself.

"What did he do this time?" Shinra asked.

"He did it, Shinra. He pasted the line. I want to fucking kill him."

"What did he do?" He asked again.

"He pretended to be a girl and made me fall in love with his made up character! I beat that little shit up pretty badly. Thats what he gets." Shinra sighed.

Shinras eyes widened, "Look Shizuo, Izaya can be a bit evil-"

"A bit?! He is! He's like a demon! Maybe even a devil!"

"-As I was saying, there's so much you dont know about Izaya. Maybe something that happened in his life effected how he is now."

"Yeah right, Tell me something I dont know about that rotten flea."

"Go ask him yourself."

"After all that?! Of course not!"

"Well I dont know much about him. He wasnt the person to tell people his personal issues/life."

Celty appeared infront of Shizuo, [You should head home and rest, Shizuo. Its late.]

"Alright. Goodnight Shinra, Good night Celty."

As I walked home, I thought about what Shinra said. What does the flea even have to hide?

Maybe I can go ask him tomorrow.