The Numbness I Felt

Chapter 6

(This chapter is a bit dark to the weak hearted and mentions some stuff that I don't call dark but I love horror movies) le

Carter walked up to me with tears in his eyes and hugs me. His face was just full of only worry.

"Why would you do that to yourself Ace." He said with tears falling.

"I don't like to talk about it, but if you are willing to listen I guess." I say.

"Ace why did you do it is the first thing." Carter looks up at me.

"Call me Valamer or Val for short I use my middle name in public with people around Ace is my middle name, but I did it thinking I blew any chances with you." A few tears fell from my eyes.

"Val you aren't a failure and I love you I there is nothing wouldn't give anything for you." He said after looking at my cuts.

"Ok Carter here goes nothing," I start, "I was young I was at my aunt's house when someone broke in. She told me to hide and while hiding I heard her scream and it was followed by a gunshot. That moment lead me into a deep depression. I never felt the same I felt only numbness after her funeral I had no feelings not even to my own family. She and I were close before she died and an-" I broke into tears.

"It is ok I am here for you now." Carter hugs me and kisses my forehead.

"Thanks Carter," I wipe some tear away, "like I was saying the depression lead me to a point of no return. I felt like who ever controls the world had me by strings and I was just it's little marionette. After years it got worse eventually I started to lose sanity," I stop, "I want you to promise me you won't tell anyone this or what I am about to say."

"If you want I will Val." He holds me closer.

"After my aunt's death I started seeing things. I would see her and hear her trying to get me to stop and other furs too. Years past without it going away and I found out from my cousin that the experience made my body turn into a more primitive state of mind. I became a medium," I stop to see Carter's face of surprise, "Years past and like I mentioned before I was losing sanity until I decided to attempt suicide. I was never caught, but I decided if that didn't work I might as well find help with my cousin. She talked with me about learning to control my aura and body to protect against spirits and to learn how to cope with it. With practice I learned how to protect myself and others. I always keep a protective shield around me. The years have taught me many taught me things like how to see auras and what they mean. Mine is a mixed aura, it contains multiple colors, each represents something. Mine is White, Indigo, and Lavender, I attract spirits and have a strong connection to the spiritual world and also get visions sometimes." I finish off.

"Val I-" Carter gets cut off.

"I almost forgot to mention this, but when I met you I felt something other than numbness I felt happiness and life love." I say blushing a bit.

"Well since you opened up I might as well too Val." Carter says.

I pick up Carter, making him yelp, and set him on my bed and I sit down next to him.

"Thanks Val, but now I might as well tell you my problem," he sighs, "I don't see that stuff but I can feel electrical currents and different amounts cause different problems. I heard the scream from last night and someone whispering help me over and over and the energy was so much I started to vibrate basically. After years of this I have learned the feeling of each current type and it was electromagnetic energy which effects me in more violent ways it the current isn't that weak."

I hug him before he can say anything else.

"Don't worry I will protect you pup." I say making he blush.

We converse for a bit when he kisses me again. He lays down next to me and puts his head in my chest. I rub his back slowly drifting off to sleep.

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I wake up to Carter asleep on me and see that we where asleep for 2 hours and it was 6:38. I wake up Carter as he rubs sleep from his eyes.

"Yes babe?" He says yawning.

"We have been asleep for two hours." I say rubbing my eyes.

"Oh. OH SHIT." Carter looks scared.

"What is wrong Pup?" I say.

"Nether your parents not my parents know about us Val." He replies.

"They will have to find out eventually." I kid him.

"Your my foxy wolf Val, you always have to make it worse." He says.

"How is it worse?" I question.

"My parents don't know I am gay." He mentions.

"Mine don't ether Pup relax we can always do this together." I smile at him. I pick Carter up bridal style, "Your mine now and if they try to do something I can always bite back."

"Aww Thanks V," He nuzzles into my chest, "Also you are super soft."

"Also you can stay the night if you would like." I say to my Pup.

"I would like that, but I would be a nuisance to you guys." He says sadly.

"No you wouldn't Pup." I say.

"Ok if you and your family are fine with it is Friday night after all." He says nuzzling deeper into my fur.

I blush as I take him downstairs to see my dad cooking dinner but my mom and brother are gone. I set Carter down on the couch and sit down next to him as he puts his head on my lap.

"Hey Dad where is Mom and Blaise?" I ask.

"They went to grab something I needed from dinner." My dad says still working on dinner.

"I just wanted to tell the family something and is it ok if my friend stays the night?" I say winking at Carter making him blush.

"Sure as long as his parents are ok with it." My Dad says still working on dinner.

"My parents said if I wanted I could as long it was ok with you guys plus I live next door." Carter says to my father.

"Ok then-" my dad starts.

"Carter" I say.

"You can stay Carter just you two don't stay up to late and be quiet if you do." My Dad says.

We blush at that and Carter sits up as the door opens. My Mom and Brother walk in with a bag and see us two on the couch.

"Who is this Ace?" My Mom says knowing few people know my real name.

And the chapter ends and we get another song to decode the rest of its meaning for the book. If you notice i love ABBA the songs they make speak to me a lot in my personal life and it is nice to have songs I like. Anyway this is Kias/Fire signing out.