P.s. Love You the Most ( James Charles and Grayson Dolan Fanfic/ gcd + jcd )

Chapter 18

After an hour we finally finish the video. I've answered so many questions, I feel exposed with all the information that is now out there, spreading throughout social media.

"We're finally done." Ethan says while stretching.

"That was...interesting." I say finally. I make my way to her couch and lay down.

"Shit, I have to edit." Grayson says

"Aren't we posting the videos on Tuesday?" Emma says confusedly.

"Sweetie, tomorrow is Tuesday." I look at her with pity.

"Oh. Mm well looks like I'm getting up early in the morning to edit." Emma says dejectedly before burying her face in the cushions.

"Wait Emma nooooo, you need to take me home." I say quickly.

"Noooo, it's sleepy time." Emma says before covering her head with a pillow.

"I can take you home." Grayson says while walking towards me.

"Uh, no. That's fine Em-."

"It's no problem at all, please James." He whispers the last part.

'Why is it so hard to say no to him."

"Fine.." I mumble softly as I get up.

Grayson takes the keys from a sleeping Ethan.
"Emma can you just drop Ethan off at the house later?" Grayson asks softly.

Emma waves her hand in agreement before flopping it back on the couch.
I make my way out the door and to the direction of the elevator. As I'm waiting, Grayson catches up with me. We both enter the death trap together.

The entire way down we don't say a word to each other. This is honestly a surprise to me. I expected Grayson to try and apologize again, maybe even try to explain himself. I guess he's over it now.

We walk out into the dark streets and are embraced with the chilling winds of the night sky. We're walking semi slowly to Ethan's car, silently taking everything in. The awkward atmosphere between us isn't comforting and is quite foreign, I'm so used to the playful banters that occur between us when we're alone.

I quietly look at Grayson once we get into the car and start off, he's got one hand on the steering wheel and the other laying on his thigh. He's so focused, it's actually kinda cute.

'No, bad James Charles, do not say nice things about the straight boy. We DON'T like him anymore'

"James.." Grayson says softly.

I look out the window as I reply.
"Grayson."

I hear Grayson sigh behind,
"Please can we just talk."

"We already talked." I say while shrugging.

"James I don't want things to be this way between us." Grayson says exaggeratedly.

I sigh loudly as I turn to look at him.
"So what do you want me to do? Forget everything that happened?"

"Yes! That's exactly what I want you to do." It's quiet for several minutes after he makes that statement. He just wants me to forget everything? I don't want to forget that moment with you.

'Well obviously he doesn't feel the same way'

"Fine." Grayson looks at me in surprise for a second before turning back to the road.

"If you want to forget everything that happened then that's fine by me. I'll forget about that morning and I'll definitely forget the feelings my stupid mind could've conjured up for you." Why am I so hurt right now? It feels like my hearts been shattered into a billion pieces.