P.s. Love You the Most ( James Charles and Grayson Dolan Fanfic/ gcd + jcd )

Chapter 28

James's POV

The ride back was surprisingly short, I was asleep for sixty percent of it and the rest was spent singing karaoke. Although the plan was to get home and watch cheesy romance movies all night, Drew and I ended up knocked out on my couch.

The next day was slow, I found myself just going with the motions. Drew kept me company, brought me food because he knew we both couldn't cook. Love him for that.

It wasn't until later on in the day that I finally made my way outside due to Drew's persistency.

"We're gonna get you a pink drink, you're in dire need of one." Drew said as he pulled the car into the parking lot of a Starbucks. Deep down inside I knew I needed that pink liquid gold in my mouth, like, yesterday.

Drew drags me out the car, surprisingly we're met with a line of only two people.

"Oh, thank God." I mumble out loud, at least I won't be away from my bed for that long.

I space out as we quickly make our way to the front of the line. I'm in another world before I hear my name being called.

"Oh, James right?" I hear a deep voice say and I'm quickly snapped out of my mind.

'Why do I recognize that voice'

I look up and am surprised with the recognition that dawns on me at the sight of the handsome face.

"Oh hey.." although his facial features are quickly recognizable, I find it hard to remember the tall guy's name.

'Jake?'

"Uh, Shawn." He says smiling lightly.

I slap my face with the palm of my hand at my stupidity. Of course, where the hell did I get Jake from? I look down at his uniform and can't help but mentally shake my head again at how dumb I could be.

'His fucking name tag is right there, omg'

"I'm sorry Shawn, I've just been having a hectic few days." I say softly.

"No, no it's fine. Uh, where's your boyfriend?" He says innocently as he looks at me and then Drew.

I look at him in utter confusion
"Who?" I quickly turn to look at Drew when I realize we've asked the same question.

"Uh, the big guy who dragged you away a couple days ago." He says curiously. I feel a pang in my chest as Grayson immediately appears in my mind.

"He doesn't have a boyfriend, he's a single Pringle." Drew says jokingly. I lightly hit his arm in slight embarrassment before turning to Shawn.

"Yeah, I don't have a boyfriend." I say quietly. That painful feeling in my chest is spreading and I honestly just want this conversation to end.

I find myself drifting again, completely dismissing myself from the conversation. Even in my unfocused state I can hear Drew order both of our drinks for us.

After awhile of waiting our drinks are finally called. Drew and I both walk up to get our drinks, when I finally take a sister sip from the liquid gold I feel a slight calmness wash over me. Fuck, I really DID need this drink.

"Omg." I take another sip of my drink after saying these words. Drew laughs at my dramatic antics as we make our way out the quiet Starbucks.

"Happy?"

"Drew, this is the happiest I've been this entire week." Drew laughs at me softly. However, a sudden pause in his actions causes me to look up.

I'm met with a look that speaks volumes, Drew's mouth is slightly open and his eyes wide in surprised
"What's up?"

"Sister, look at your cup right now." Drew demands loudly as he smiles.

I look at him confused for several seconds before finally taking a peek at my cup.

'Oh god'

Written in bold black pen is a familiar but unexpected number.

"OMG that cute guy from Starbucks gave you his number. I'm not even surprised, you're a whole meal." Drew claps his hands in excitement as he snatches the drink from my hand to get a closer look.

I roll my eyes at his antics,
"No I'm not, but that's besides the point. It's not like I'm gonna text him."

"What? Why, he's right up your alley. Is it because he's actually gay?"

I open my mouth to answer the questions but I'm interrupted by my overly excited best friend.

"He may be gay but he's the type of gay that looks straight, you feel me? Like he looks straight, which is weird but true." Drew continues to ramble and I can't help but smile at his attempts to woo me over.

"Drew!" I say loudly to get his attention. He finally looks over at me, a nervous smile slowly spreading across his face.

"It's not because he's gay, I just, I still have feelings for Gray." The last part I say quietly, disappointment obvious in my tone. I am very disappointed with myself, after what happened these feelings should be gone. Thrown into a box, locked, and tossed into the ocean.

I expect the same amount of disappointment to be expressed on Drew's face at the admission but surprisingly that's not what I get. Instead I get a face that expresses understanding and an undeniable amount of support.

"Aww babe," Drew pulls me in for a side hug as we stand outside of the car, a half empty cup of Starbucks in my hand.

"You've had those feelings for so long, it's completely understandable for them to still be there." I shake my head in agreement against his shoulders.

"But, don't you think you should give this guy a chance? Who knows, maybe he could be the one to finally shake Grayson's hold on you."

I contemplate everything Drew says. I continue to look over all the possibilities on our way back to my house and it's not until we're sitting down in my living room that I finally come to a conclusion.

"I guess a text message won't hurt-" I'm interrupted yet again by a scream.

"Yes, this is a proud mom moment." Drew says excitedly as he shoves my phone into my chest.

I bite my lip lightly as I take the device into my hands and type in Shawn's number.

"What do I even say, just a hi? Should I even be texting him NOW? What the fuck am I doing with myself." I say exaggeratedly as I throw my phone back on the couch.

"Omg girl just day 'hi, this is James' or something. Just do you, he'll love you." Drew shoves the phone back in my hand and smiles at me encouragingly.

I sigh loudly as I slowly type in what Drew said. I feel my thumb hover over the send button, should I do this? My feelings for Grayson are strong, should I be wasting my time doing this.

A hand is suddenly over mine and I look up at the owner, my hesitation  obvious in my facial expression.

"Look, if you don't want to do this then you don't have to, I'm on your side either way. Just ask yourself this, do you really want to waste anymore of your time on someone who treated you the way Grayson did?" I think over Drew's words for a minute before finally looking back down at my phone.

'No, I really don't'

I press send and prepare for the waves of drama that are bound to come my way, my life definitely has a pattern.