P.s. Love You the Most ( James Charles and Grayson Dolan Fanfic/ gcd + jcd )

Chapter 15

James's POV

"Stupid heterosexual males." I mumble as I stab my spoon into a bowl of cereal.

"Fuck them all." I shove a full spoon of frosted flake goodness in my mouth as I curse the existence of immature imbeciles. The whole night consisted of me crying my eyes out while eating mint chocolate chip ice cream. If I just so happened to look through Grayson's Instagram feed while doing it, I honestly don't see that as anyone's business.

'I pity myself'

I slam my head into the table as I get a reminder message from Emma telling me that the sister squad is almost here. It's currently 6pm and anytime now I will be picked up by the sister squad so we can get food for Emma's video. They were too lazy to do anything extraordinary so they settled on a Mukbang Q&A.

Maybe the universe thinks I can handle this onslaught. Maybe it thinks sister James is just that cool, fun, and fresh and he can handle all this shit. Well universe you are wrong about sister James. He cannot handle this situation and he's contemplating riding his Tesla off a cliff. Thanks.

Grayson had been texting me nonstop last night, repeatedly apologizing and trying to explain. I just couldn't handle it, after getting something, feeling something with Grayson I thought I never would experience with him. After believing for a short second that he might love me too or at least return an ounce of the feelings I have for him, I'm hit with this. I don't know what I was expecting, this isn't the first time something like this has happened. A straight guy dabbles in, has a little fun with the gay boy and tosses him away after. Deep down I know Grayson would never purposely make me feel this way but it doesn't take away from the fact that he DID.

*knock knock knock knock knock knock knock*

I'm interrupted from my thoughts by annoying knocks on my door.

"OK I'M COMING, shit." I say as I make my way to the front of my house. I barely open the door before Emma is sprinting through the entrance, running in the direction of the bathroom.

"Need to pee, figure out a place to get food while I'm gone!"

"Well then.." I mumble quietly as I look back to the door.

"Yo." Ethan says while waving his hand. Grayson stands next to him not saying a word.

I move aside, giving them space to come in.
"Yo back."

They both walk into the living room and sit on the couch. I sit down across from them.

"So what's the plan?" I ask pointedly looking at Ethan. If I prevent myself from making any sort of contact with Grayson, maybe I'll get through this day.

"Well we want to mukbang we just don't know where to eat." Ethan says.

"What are our options?"

Grayson leans forward in his seat as he speaks.
"Anywhere is fine, some places we were thinking about were in-n-out, Panda Express, and Five Guys."

I do not look his way as he speaks, I stay in my own lane and my eyes mind their own damn business. For once they're not being traitors. Point me.

"In-n-out sounds so good right now." I  say. I needed a beefy burger in my mouth yesterday.

"Yeah but I don't eat meat so." Emma says from behind me. I jump a little bit, not expecting to hear her voice behind me.

"Jesus Christ Emma." Holding a hand to my chest I quickly turn around to look at her.

"A little warning next time you ninja." I say as I make room for her on the couch.

"My bad." She says smiling.