P.s. Love You the Most ( James Charles and Grayson Dolan Fanfic/ gcd + jcd )

Chapter 31

James's POV

"Grayson! What the hell are you doing here?"

I look at him expectantly as I discreetly hide the hand holding my keys behind my back.

"I, uh." He seems to be just as surprised as I am.

"I wanted to," he licks his lips quickly before continuing.

"To talk, to you."

Is it possible for a human's voice to have that much power over you? Seriously I almost crumbled to the floor after hearing his deep voice for the first time after what felt like ages.

'James, you're mad right now. Remember?'

I snap myself out of the love induced spell and scowl at Grayson.

"That's great, I had a few things to say to you as well." I say with the attitude of a thousand bridezillas. I move out the way and give him room to walk in through. I close the door and turn to find Grayson still standing next to me.

I clear my throat before pointing towards the living room.
"We'll talk in there."

I walk in the direction of the couch and sit down, Grayson does the same and I look at him expectantly.

"James-" I tried, I really tried to just sit back and listen but I couldn't.

"Grayson why would you just show up at my door step like that?" I cross my arms as I look at him angrily.

"What gave you the right to even show up spontaneously anywhere near me?" Grayson looks at me intensely, making the guilt in his eyes easier to see.

"I don't understand why you'd want to be anywhere near me anyway, seeing as I disgust you." I say with uncontrollable venom.

"James you're not disgusting." Grayson says quickly.

"Then why would you say that to me?"

Grayson looks at me softly,
"I, I felt cornered. You were opening me up to feelings I'd been trying to keep bottled up for a long time."

"You're bottled up feelings of immense hatred for me?"

"Of course not, James, I do not hate you."

"Grayson, you do realize you hurt me right?" I say as I stand up suddenly.

'Well known drama queen here guys'

"You fucking hurt me, you hurt me so much and a majority of that hurt came from me not expecting that from you." Grayson opens his mouth to speak but I quickly hold my hand up as tears build up in my eyes.

"I wasn't expecting you to hurt me like this so when you did I wasn't prepared. I didn't have anything to mentally protect me nor prepare me for it."

I try my hardest to keep the tears from flowing as I finally spill out my emotions.

"And when I try to get over you, you, you have the nerve to pop up. Why do you keep doing shit like this to me?" I can't stop the tears from flowing as I quickly move to wipe them.

"If you don't like me then that's fine but just leave me alone. I'll be fine if you just let me be for a little while." I say quietly as I look away. I'm so fucking exhausted and I honestly don't know how my legs are holding me up.

After several seconds I hear movement behind me. The sound of someone getting up from the couch.

'He's leaving'

This is good, it's good. He has to leave James, if you ever want to move on then he needs to leave.

I feel my shoulders sag as my hands fall from my eyes. I let the tears fall freely down my face.