P.s. Love You the Most ( James Charles and Grayson Dolan Fanfic/ gcd + jcd )

Chapter 32

James's POV

I wake up with an excruciating migraine, the literal queen of all headaches.

Every time my mind wanders to the events that transpired the night before, I'm left confused, angry, sad, and fucking confused.

After Grayson confessed everything to me last night, I was so close to just accepting it. If I spent anymore time just listening to him I probably would've. I can't deny the feelings that washed over me when he told me that he loved me back, it was an overwhelming feeling of relief and happiness.

The only thing that stopped me from completely falling under the spell of that kiss was the lingering anger and fear that mantled me. All of those endearing words didn't take away from the fact that he hurt me.

'Don't get me started on Shawn'

Shawn, the sweet guy somehow caught feelings for me, I don't know how he did it so quickly but he did.

I need fucking help, and some fucking food. I'm hungry and irritated which does not blend well.

I eat my trusty cornflakes, this bowl of cereal is literally the only stable thing going on in my life right now. Love that.

I look down at the sound of my phone ringing and quickly deflate when I see the name that pops up. Even so, I pick up the phone anyway with a forced smile.

"Hey Shawn."

"Hey James, whatcha doing?" I can practically feel the smile through the phone.

"Um, Nothing much, just eating some cereal." Wow James, real interesting.

"Why does it feel like you're always eating cereal?"

"That's because I am, I don't cook because of the risk of burning the house down." Shawn laughs at me but I'm serious, me cooking without supervision means the house burning down.

"Uh, I was wondering if you were busy today..?" Oh, oh god.

'I'm too much of a jumbled mess to go anywhere with anyone right now'

"Um, well no, I'm staying inside today because I haven't been feeling very well." Technically I'm not lying.

"Oh.." I cringe at the blatant disappointment in his voice.

'I'm sorry Shawn, fuck I'm sorry'

"That's fine James, do you think you'll be better by Saturday?" He's so persistent, I would've found it so cute in any other situation.

"Nope, nothing on Saturday." It's Thursday now, that should be enough time for me to 'feel better'.

"Oh great! Would you like to have dinner around 7?"

"Sounds like fun, can't wait." I say.

We say our goodbyes before hanging up, leaving me to bask in my thoughts through the surrounding silence.

Ethan's POV

"So what I'm hearing is, he didn't straight up reject your ass." I look at Grayson with wide surprised eyes after he tells me everything that happened.

Emma is sitting beside me, a hopeful expression on her face as she looks at Grayson.
"This is good, you have a chance."

"I kinda thought you fucked it up completely." I mumble under my breath. Emma slaps me on the arm, berating me for my negative thoughts.

"Yeah, but obviously things still hadn't gone as planned." Grayson sighs loudly as he slumps in his seat.

"Grayson I hope you weren't expecting James to just fly into your arms after the confession." Emma says.

"You didn't when he confessed." Grayson looks at me guiltily after I point that out and I'm left feeling kinda bad myself.

'Be nice Ethan'

Emma slaps her thighs loudly,
"Well, what are you gonna do now?"

Grayson looks up, his face similar to a deer's when caught in headlights.
"W-well nothing, I guess. He said to give him time."

"You can't just sit back and not say anything." Emma says.

He raises his hands in defense,
"He said he wanted time to think! What can I do?"

I facepalm before looking at my brother in obvious disappointment.

'Be nice Ethan'

I take a deep breath before looking at him.
"Do you think Shawn is giving him 'space'"

I roll my eyes when all Grayson does is give me a confused look.
"Shawn's gonna snatch James from right under your nose if you just sit back and give him space."

He gives me a fearful look which only lasts for a second before it's transformed into one of determination.
"What do I do? I can't be too clingy, can I?"

"Nope." Emma says

"Just do something romantic, something that will completely seal the deal. Let him know that your feelings aren't going anywhere and stronger than anyone else's." I don't know where the hell that came from, as far as I was concerned I wasn't the lovey-dovey type.

"Woah, okay, that's actually really nice." Emma says, shit she heard everything I just said.

I distract myself with Grayson's thinking face.
"Well he likes music.."

"Grayson I hope you're saying you'll sing a song for him." Emma claps her hands quickly in front of her as she looks at Grayson excitedly.

"What? No, I can't put him through that. My voice is horrible, oh god no." Grayson covers his face with his shirt as he slouches further down the couch.

I laugh at my brother's pain because it's funny, really it is.

We are all quiet for several minutes before Grayson sits up straight, his eyes bright, brighter then they've been all day.
"I have an idea, Ethan we might lose fans."

"Fuck em', they were obviously fake ones anyway." Emma says hurriedly.

I nod in agreement before Grayson explains to us his plans.

'Woah'

That's fucking bold, it's definitely bringing Grayson out his comfort zone.

"Are you sure? Can you do this?" I ask cautiously.

Grayson looks at me, the determination from earlier multiplied.
"I need to do this, I need to prove myself. James needs to know that I'm
being serious."

I'm proud, really proud. I truly hope that everything goes as planned.

Emma jumps up from her seat,
"Well, let's get sister started."

Author's Notes
Shorter Chapter today guys