His eyes were wide at that statement. "You... love me?" He asks.
"You tell me one good reason I shouldn't." I smile.
He does a cute giggle, smiling happily. He tackles me and lays on top of me. He rests his head on my heart.
"I love you, too." He mumbles.
"Jeong-In... do you believe that we can actually date in private, even hiding it from the other members?" I ask.
"If we try hard enough, we can hide everything." He smiles.
"Are you sure? And don't let anyone exept me mess with you, okay? At least not when it comes being silly. You can be silly with whoever, but I don't want Seungmin or whoever to, like, pin you to the wall or some shit."
He nods and hugs me tightly. "Yes, sir." He smiles.
"I just don't want you to accidentally let out our little secret." I say. " It's very important that you don't say anything about us."
"Hyung, calm down. I won't." He says. "Now let me sleep." He mumbles, closing his eyes .
I play with his hair while he drifts off to sleep. I kiss the top of his head. He lets out a cute little snore while he sleeps. I smile.
"Cute." I say to myself.
I hug him and put on some soft piano music. His cold hand reaches up and rests on my chest. I hold his cold hands, warming them up. He lets out a quiet mumble while I lock my fingers with his.
"Hmm?" I ask, looking at hisnsleeping face.
He doesn't say anything else. He lets out soft snores, his arm around my waist. I kiss his forehead and close my eyes.
*morning*
I wake up to Jeongin laying on top of me. I sigh and roll him off of me. He rubs his eyes and yawns. He nestles his face in my neck, still fast asleep.
I run my hand through his messy hair. Planting a kiss on his lips, he sqints his eyes open at me. He turns away from me and sighs.
"Good morning, Sleeping Beauty." I hug him from behind.
"Mmm." He replies.
"Did you sleep well?" I ask.
He shrugs, then nods and turns to look at me again. He adjusts the soft pillow under his hwad with a sigh. I give him a kiss on his pouty lips. He hums at me.
I smile at him. "What?" I tease him.
"I wanna go eat food." He stretches.
"I'm down for food." I nod.
"Oh, but neither Chris or Woojin are here. What will we do?" He asks.
"Hmm... I don't know. Let's just go see if there's cereal or whatever." I kiss his nose.
He nods. We both get out of bed and go to the kitchen to look for food. We eat a simple breakfast together. I hear someone crying quietly in the cupboard under the sink. I open the cabinet doors to find Felix and curled up like a littke kid.
"Lix? Whhat are you doing down there?" I squat down to see him better.
"Go away." He pushes me out of the way and closes the cabinet door.
I open it back up and look at him. I rest my hand on his lightly, but he pulls away.
"Don't fucking touch me." He swats at me.
"Will you at least tell me why you're under the sink?" I ask.
"Buzz off, dickhead." He curls up even tighter in a ball.
I sigh. "What did I do?" I tilt my head.
"You bothered me. L-Leave me alone." He cries.
I hold his hand and pull him out of the cupboard. He takes his earbuds and looks at me. I wrap my arms around him.
"I'm scared, Hyung. I'm so scared." He sniffles.
"Of what?" I ask.
"I'm scared to go on. At this point, I really don't want to be here." He cries.
"What are you saying? You're allowed to go on a vacation while we're on break." I sit him on the counter.
He shakes his head. "No, I'm scared to keep living. I don't want to die. But if there's the chance of new ending up like Woojin-hyung every time I go outside, I don't want to be killed."
"Felix, this doesn't make any sense. What do you mean?" I tilt my head.
"I want to kill myself so I can be sure no one else does." He admits.
"Felix, why would you think like that?"
"And also, Binnie won't talk to me because he thought I was flirting with Chan-hyung, but I wasn't. There's just no real good in life right now for me." He looks down sadly.
I hug him tightly and then kiss his forehead. "It'll be okay. I promise. It will get better."
"Oh, really? I'm going to bed." He pushes me away and rubs his eyes.
"When was the last time you slept?"
"I don't know." He shrugs.
He goes off to his room. I turn to Jeong-In and he hugs me. I lead him to the living room where Lee Know was, playing on his phone.
"Han-ah, can we go on a walk?" Jeong-In asks me.
"Oh, no. You guys can't go out yet. It's not safe still." Lee Know denies.
"Right. Ummm... what should we do?"
"I have an idea." Lee Know says.
