It's Definitely You | | j.hs

24

Jinae

Before I know it, weeks go by, Hoseok and I are together, and college is going by smoothly. 

All is well and I'm really happy. I have an amazing grouping of friends and my family loves them. I'm doing well in school and I'm starting to appreciate myself for who I am. I'm finally okay with how I am as a person; the physical and psychological aspects. I'm finally okay with me.

And tonight I'm supposed to go to a gala of sorts. I'm dressed in the fanciest dress I have ever had to wear in my life up to this point and my hair is done as nicely as I could possibly do it on my own. My makeup looks like a professional did it. I feel pretty.

I smile as my mom takes a few more pictures before Hoseok arrives to pick me up. Just as she finishes snapping the last shot, there's a faint knock on the door before my dad calls, "It's open!"

Hoseok steps through the door looking even more amazing than usual. His hair looks perfectly tousled and he's wearing a very fancy black suit. I smile as soon as he steps into my field of vision, my breath almost catching in my throat. His eyes light up when he sees my face and I swear my heart skips a beat. 

"Wow," he breathes, walking toward me. A blush washes across my face as he looks me up and down, nearing me with every movement of his eyes. When he finally reaches me, he wraps his arm around my waist and looks at me with so much adoration. 

My mom starts cooing about how cute we look and I roll my eyes, trying to hide my smile from her. I can tell she's taking pictures of the two of us, but I don't care as long as I'm in his arms. 

And just like that he leans down and presses his lips to mine. For a moment I forget my mom is standing there watching us and taking pictures. I smile into the kiss and pull away after a second, leaning my head against Hoseok's shoulder. 

"Oh goodness," my mom says, snapping me out of the trance I have been in for the past few minutes, "you two will be late if you don't leave now!" 

Hoseok says goodbye to my mother and I say mine after him. I give my mom a huge hug and I thank her for everything, even the impromptu photos. She laughs and sends me off, but not before reminding me to be safe and stay with Hoseok.

"You look beautiful, Cupcake," Hoseok tells me as he opens the door of his car for me. I smile and compliment him back as he gets in his car. The whole car ride is full of senseless chatter and laughter, but it's nice and peaceful. 

It doesn't take us very long to get to the event, but when we do I see all the guys and my two best friends. Everyone looks amazing and I tell them that immediately. 

We all walk in together and I swear everyone stops and stares for a moment. It's cliche, but I feel powerful and on top of the world. I'm surrounded by my best friends, I feel pretty, and I'm doing something I never thought I would ever do in my life. I'm happy.

I feel like I belong.

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After a few hours the party is over. I'm supposed to stay at Sunnie's house, so Hoseok says he'll drop me off. 

We get into his car and it's quiet for a while. I stare out the window at the streetlights and passerby. I notice after around five minutes that Hoseok isn't going the right way, so I ask where we're going. He doesn't answer right away, but rather pulls over in front of the park where we went the first day we met. 

He stops the car and starts to get out, so I do the same, following him over to the middle of the grass. It's the first time I notice, but he's carrying a blanket and just as we both stop, he starts laying out the blanket on the grass. He makes it perfectly spread out before he gestures for me to sit. 

We lay next to each other and look up at the stars for a little while before I notice Hoseok shift beside me. He sits up and looks down at me, rubbing the back of his neck like he usually does when he's nervous. 

"Everything alright?" I ask, sitting up. He blinks his eyes back into focus and nods after a second. "Sure?" He nods again and I give him a soft smile, looking back up at the sky and leaning back on my elbows.

The stars look beautiful tonight and the moon is full. I've always loved astrology and I've always wanted a telescope and someone to talk about stars with. I could point out many constellations from where we lived back in Florida, but here, not so much.

"Um, Cupcake?" Hoseok says from beside me. I snap out of my trance and turn to look at him, sitting up straight. He breathes in and out looking me in my eyes, his gaze unwavering. "Jinae-yah, we've been together for a while now. I mean, hell, we've known each other since July and it's December. We've been together since September and I knew this then just as well as I know this now.

"You're such a good person. You're caring and sweet and beautiful. I never would have thought I'd ever meet someone like you. Someone who I'd do anything for." He pauses, letting everything he's just said sink in. "Song Jinae," he breathes, "I love you."

My heart rate speeds up, but it feels like it's stopped at the same time. My thoughts are whizzing around my head at a million miles per second and I can't fully grasp onto any of them, but two are being screamed louder than the rest.

I love you too, Hoseok-ah, and Say something you fuck! 

"Hoseok-ah," I whisper, "I love you too."

And at that moment, I am happier than I have been since our first kiss. I feel lighter than air and I'm excited to go see Soyoungie and Misun-ah and tell them everything.

This.

This is what I've always wanted in life.

Happiness...

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So this is the end. What do you think about leaving it at their first I love yous? I thought it was a good idea personally. I know that it's probably an abrupt ending, but I like it here. I think this is a good place to end it. I mean, there isn't much to do with Jinae being in school and the boys working all the time. 

The epilogue is next, but don't expect whatever you're expecting. It's not that at all. I think I wrote the epilogue well and I really hope you agree, but please do tell if you don't and what you'd change if you wrote it. 

Anyway, this book was a journey and it was written for the lovely Ariel (@ohmygodhey01). Ariel, I hope you liked your book and I really hope the ending is satisfying for you. 

Thank you so much for reading. It means a lot to me. 

Until next time. :))