Inked

Chapter 17 - Burning heart

I must have fallen asleep on the couch in his studio as I woke up to the door of the studio open and a dark figure sliding in. Still tired I closed my eyes again but then the lights were turned on and someone screamed "Namjoon" very loud.  I stood up and saw Jackson tackling a figure on the ground with a tight hug.

I stood up and rubbed my eyes and saw that Namjoon was sleeping on the floor with a tiny blanket. Instantly I felt bad for him.

"Jackson get off me", Namjoon said demanding and Jackson rolled off laughing and stopped as his eyes met mine.

"NJ?", he asked suprised.

"Loud as usual", I said fixing my clothes.

" Namjoon what are you doing? What is she doing here?", Jackson asked on the verge of freaking out.

"Calm down. We are working together on some music", Namjoon said as he sat up.

Jackson seemed relieved by the answer and looked at me.

"I went to vist you earlier Noona but Villain told me to go. Gaho was nicer and said that you are off but you were not home. Glad I am seeing you here", he said smiling.

"Why did you want to talk to me? Are you guys fighting again?", I asked him amused.

"No. Even if you canceled our friendship I did not. I wanted to know why you said these words and why you kicked out Jinyoung the other day. I was at the concert too and your final song... I finally understand your feelings", Jackson said while fixing your cap.

" So?", I asked him more annoyed.

"You love him and for some reason you thought it would be better to push him away. Villain must have invited him so that you finally could be together. That song was written for him right. It was your burning heart but Jinyoung brought his new girl and was too stupid to realised the meaning of the song. When a friend of mine is heart broken then I am here to help them and make sure they have enough ice cream", he said as he said next to me.

" I never knew that you are this smart", Namjoon teased Jackson who stuck his tongue out.

" Jackson...", I started but he cut me off.

" I will never say one word to anyone out there. This is our secret ok so please show me the real/ true Naja I came across. Do not hide anymore", Jackson begged me but I remained silent.

Instead of opening up I just grabbed my jacket, bag and headed out to go home. I could not do this right now. There was a cab pulling up which I took to get home. My burning heart? What was he even implying? He saw right through me but I could not break down again. I could not allow myselft this.

The rest of the week Namjoon came to my place and we produced the songs in my small studio room. He said that we could be less distracted and he was not even mentioning any of the things that happened the other day. I was glad that he did not and the albume was taking a very unexpected turn in terms of genre. We worked well together and we finished the album soon after. The result was amazing.

I send the albume to PLT and the CEO to listen to it and suggested to meet them 2 days after. I requested it to be released as soon as possible. Just 5 hrs after I send in the album it was released on each platform we owned and the reponse was great. Bigger than the last one and the title of the album was "Burning heart". It fitted the whole albume.

Things change all the time and there ain't anything that people understand. They once said to me that how you react to people does not reflect who you are but who they are. In this term I accuse myself of being guilty of this. The pain that I felt I portrayed on others. What they thought of me was what I wanted them to think of me. This album was me coming clean of it. All the waste that I piled up. I did not want to live in the past but look forward.