Inked

Chapter 12 - New winds

I felt very uneasy suddenly. Jinyoung and I were in different lanes of our career and he developed such instense feelings for me. I pushed him away from me, grabbed my jacket and ran out. All the emotions that I was supressing were bubbling up and it was unlike me to run away but I did. I heard people in  the distance call my name but it was all just blurry and like a haze. I nearly ran all the way home but then I stopped. I knew that they would all try to find me there first so I did something that would always let me feel free. The studio, it was my home now so as I entered the deserted place I felt like I would break into single pieces any moment. I sat down with the guitar in the vocal booth and just played the strings and closed my eyes. The tears ran down my face and I was unable to handle all these feelings. I never felt like that before- so vunerable. With my sleeve I whiped away my tears and began to sing my heart out. I sang louder and louder until my voice gave up and until I felt lighter. The strings on the guitar snapped when I hit the last string which ironically fitted on how I felt. The studio door creeked open and Iooked up to see Villain rushing in with a worried face. He sat down infront of me and looked at the mess I was in. I expected him to inquire me or say something but he did not. He just sat down next to me and took the broken guitar in his hands and smiled weakly.

" You broke my favourite child", he said chuckling slightly.

Confused I looked at him and nodded.

" I will buy you a new one. Sorry", I said honeslty.

" So NJ why did you run away? What did he do? I nearly beat him up but Gaho held me back", he hissed in resurfacing anger.

" You know I never run away. I never did and it was unlike me but the feelings that bubbled up scared me so my instinct was to flee. Ironic right- instead of worrying about me and being scared of what happened with that man I was more terrified on how important they and you are to me. How important he was for me...", I said in a whisper.

" Noona do you...", he started to ask but I cut him off.

I shook my head and stood up to face him : " We are in different lanes so we can never be. I will remove myself and these feelings. So let us make you guys big. That is all what matters right now. Consider me a cold ass Noona".

Villain jumped up and came to me and gave me a big hug.

" I will be here for you no matter what. Also if you need me to beat up people then I will do that. I am a Villain after all", he said and released me.

I turned to head out but Villain grabbed my arm.

" Noona let me say one last thing. Finding someone you care about is rare and if you both love eachother than you should find a way to be together. Nothing in life that is worth having comes the easy way. So whatever you decide on I will support you. I and we want you to be happy", he said very seriously and let go of my arm.

Out of all the boys here he was considered the least mature one and the one that jokes around alot. From the very first encounter I knew that there was a different side to him and he finally revealed that one. When he cares about someone than he would move mountains for that person just so he could see them smile. Villain was not a bad guy, in fact he was an invisible superhero.

We headed out and he drove me home and to my suprise there was noone waiting for me. Relieved I walked into my apartment and took my shoes off and walked into the living room. I held in a moment when I saw that the light were on and as I turned around the corner I saw Mark sitting on my couch. He was in his phone and tapping nervously with his foot on the floor.

"Did you break in?", I asked him exhausted.

As soon as he heard my voice he jumped up and looked at me.