Inked

Chapter 18 - Premier

Usually artists that drop an album would promote it before it or at least start on the day of the release but I was not feeling it. I wanted people to listen to it before I would say what it is about. Apart from my public CV and career people did not know my private personality. After just a few weeks PLT insisted on me giving my first interview since the media request have been piling up and there was no way that I could keep hiding forever. A few hours before the interview Namjoon wanted to meet me at the location where the interview/ showcase would be held at. Hitman and BTS were invited as special guest later on but through out the process of working together we became friends. Villain picked me up from my house and dropped me off. We have not been speaking alot since our last concert. The car drive was rather quiet.

" Are you nervous?", he asked me eyes fixed on the road.

I looked up from my phone and smiled saying: " Yeah".

"Noona I need to ask you this? Are we still cool? Are you mad that I invited him? I just meant it...", he started to apologize.

" No I am not mad. This album was just possible because of that one day encounter and you did nothing wrong. You wanted me to be happy and today I feel more like myself. They say the best songs are born in the worst pain that we feel. We are cool... And I wanted to apologize for not replying  to you. I needed some time for me-to think. I hope you are not mad with me", I said apologetic.

The traffic light that we approached jumped to red and he just beamed the biggest smile at me.

"I could never be mad with you. This albume... it changed you and you glow like you never did before. It is hard to explain... as if you were reborn", he said laughing as we pulled up at the venue.

I laughed and slided off my seat heading to the backstage area. The secruity men made sure that we were not mobbed by all the journalists there. The amount of cameras that were pointed at me were scary. Villain joined the rest of the team on stage to make sure that everything was ready to go. As I entered my dressing room I found Namjoon sitting there dozing off. I approached him quietly and threw a sofa pillow at him. Lazily he opened his eyes and looked a bit angry for the culprit of this prank. When he saw that it was me who was sheepilishy smiling at him he just smiled and sat up.

" You are early", I said to him as I got two bottles of water out and gave him one as I sat opposite to him. He smiled and nodded.

" Yeah I was here for a schedule ealier and thought that it would not make any sense to drive back in rush hour. Anyway how are you feeling today?", he asked me rubbing his sleepy eyes.

I leaned back and stared at the ceiling.

" I really have no idea. Different. Excited and nervous. This is new for me. To feel vunerable with this album", I said exhaling.

" Will you be ok if you see him tonight? And the others?", he asked me seriously.

I nodded.

" I told you that I have enough of this mascarade. I miss them to be honest. Even him and I have to grow up and not live in the past. If he is happy then I am too.. even when I am not the reason behind that", I said smiling.

Namjoon was very happy with my answer and applauded me.

" I think meeting you made me realise some things in my life and for that I can never thank you enough. Maybe one day your team mates will not detest me anymore", I said bowing to him respectfully.

He was taken back by my gesture and bowed aswell.

" I learned alot of things aswell NJ. That is what they call a fated meeting right? Ok get ready for the show and I will see you afterwards. Fighting!", he said cheerful and left me alone.