everything i didn't say. (a.i. au)

Letter 11

"Someday, I'm sure we'll pass each other by."

Dear, Sophia,

I went down to the playground last night. Ya know, the one two blocks down from my place? Well, once my mom was asleep, I snuck out. I couldn't sleep.

I was surprised to find Luke there. He was sitting the swings, smoking a cigarette. When he saw me, he gave me a small halfsmile and nodded. "Hey."

"What are you doing here?" I asked, sitting on the swing next to me.

"Couldn't sleep," he answered, shrugging. "You?"

"Same," I said, swinging slowly. We were silent for a moment, just sitting there until I decided to break the ice. "Look, Luke, man. I'm sorry I punched you that day."

"Don't say that," Luke said. "Don't say that. I deserved it. I shouldn't have said that about Sophia. I don't know why I say things like that most of the time. There are just so many things I wished I had said to her."

"Me too," I said, gripping the chains to the swing. "I wish I would've said so much to her too. I wish I was there with her when she put that gun to her head. I wish I was there when she was even thinking about killing herself."

I grip the chains harder, tears threatening to pour down my cheeks. Why the hell did you leave me, Soph? If you would've waited to leave, I would've came with you too. Why didn't you wait?

I was taken by surprise when Luke suddenly wrapped his arms around me. I melted into them. I didn't haven't felt comfort like that since you've been gone.

And then he did something unbelieveable.

He kissed me.

The prick kissed me.

I had pushed him away though. I had pushed him away and wiped my mouth before standing up. "What the hell is your problem, you asshole?!" I yelled and punched him square in the jaw. He fell off of the swing and onto the dirt. I had kicked him the stomach before spitting on him. "Stay away from me," I hissed before walking off, not wanting him to see my tears.

See what you leaving started?

Love, Ashton