"I know that it's a little too late."
Dear, Sophia,
I'm so torn apart right now. I can't even breathe. It feels like there's a weight sitting on my chest.
I'm not going to school today. My mom doesn't know because she's at work. Good. My plan will work perfectly then.
I can't take it, Soph. I can't take life without you. It sucks dick. I miss you so fucking much. It hurts like hell. Why the hell did you have to leave me?
But I'm more mad at myself than you. Why couldn't I have been there with you? Why couldn't I have been there when you were thinking about killing yourself? Why couldn't I have gotten the gun out of your hand? I could've saved you. You would still be here with me.
I'm sitting on my bed writing this. I wanted to write you one last letter before I ended it all. I'm not going out the way you did though. I'm using pills. Quick, clean, and easy.
And don't worry. I wrote letters to everyone. Even Luke and Calum. I hope you're up there waiting for me. That's all I'm looking forward to.
I'll see you soon, baby.
Love, Ashton
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everything i didn't say. (a.i. au)
Fanfic"Taking every breath away, with all of the mistakes, from all the letters that I saved, this is everything I didn't say." ********** In which Ashton writes letters to his dead girlfriend whom he lost to suicide, and every day, he lives with the guil...
