Jordan & Cameron - A Fanfic

"Fall Between the Cracks,"

I was incredibly pessimistic that night.

Jordan and Kelly walked by my apartment, I heard them laughing, and he didn't even stop to say anything to me. I looked out the window a minute later and I saw his Mercedes pull out of the garage, numerous stories below. From up here, everyone looked like toys.

I hoped that he'd send a text, telling me we could do something together tomorrow, but I never got one.

I had an intense feeling of trepidation, and thus started to shake violently. I hurried to my room and got the Prozac out of it's drawer next to my bed. I took a couple and swallowed them without water.

I then lay down, crossing my arms limply on my chest, wincing whenever I heard a honk or a siren.

Eventually, the drowiness overtook me and I soon fell into an outlandishly deep sleep.

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I woke up at about 3 in the morning to my phone buzzing. I was in a very sleepy state, eyes half open, mouth dry, all that jazz. It was my friend, Autumn (who does not know about Jordan and I), texting my excitedly. She always wanted all of her favorite youtubers to find love or whatever. Something about them loving their partners as much as their fans love them yada yada I dunno.

She tagged me in an instagram post that shattered my heart, I could practically feel it splitting apart in my chest.

I honestly thought I was already falling for Jordan, because he made me feel wanted.

However that was slowly fading away as I stared at the picture of Kelly's lips attatched to his. his eyebrows raised, his hand on her arm.

He hadn't even kissed me like that.

I threw my phone at the wall, and it bounced off of it. I lay there, staring at the ceiling, feeling everything but nothing at the same time.

If, everytime I thought of you, I were to pluck a star out of the sky,

The sky would be dark...

Jordan, if that were true for me, the sky will be dark by the end of tonight.

I grabbed my phone and tried to avoid looking at that picture of them.

I went on my soundcloud and turned on a playlist my friend had sent me. The second one was I Don't Love You by MCR.

I promtly felt my face heat up and my throat start to close. Tears pooled in my eyed and I tried my best not to let them fall, but to no avail. I turned on my side and let them slip onto my pillow. All I felt was pain.

I fell asleep after what seemed like an eternity.