It's Gotta Be You

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I had been hiding out in London since I left Maine. To make matters worse, Jayme had been offered the perfect job, but it would involve her having to move. 

She had left about two weeks ago to check it out, so I had been by myself since.

Because of the video and the news revolving around it, I was becoming a popular name when it came to tabloids.

It seemed like paparazzi was everywhere I went now and it was making me paranoid to leave my own home.

They all asked such horrible questions, repeating them constantly.

I had been watching Twitter and saw that the boys had returned some time ago. 

Louis and Harry were the only ones that attempted to contact me.

There were about seventy text messages and thirty-something voice messages, all from them. They asked if I was still alive, if I needed a friend, just the usual. 

I haven't been on Twitter for the past two days since Directioners are attacking me and accusing me of secretly planning to destroy the boys careers.I would never do anything like that

! A video had also been posted on Youtube, Tumblr, Twitter, well everywhere of Niall yelling at me and screaming to the world about what I did. So now everyone knew that Liam and I dated and that Niall and I had a thing. 

The comments on it were brutal and the video had pretty much gone viral. So my phone blew up about seventy times a day with a comment about it and how I'm such a horrible person. I didn't mean to make everyone mad though, not that they'd hear me out. 

I was going in for a meeting with Darren and getting some studio time today. I decided to make myself presentable since I've been living in sweats since returning. 

After taking a shower and I did my makeup for the first time, as well as my hair. If I looked like me again then Darren wouldn't be as concerned about everything. 

As I finished getting ready, I realized that making myself look nice actually made me feel a little bit better.

I say that lightly though.

(Picture of outfit)

I was still so emotionally drained and pretty much stayed away from anything that would involve me coming into the story. 

I didn't want to hear anything being said about me, I didn't want to know what the boys thought of me.

 Darren sent a driver for me and the ride over was awkward. 

Once we arrived at the studio, security had to rush me in since paparazzi tried to swarm me and were yelling questions.

I never thought one song would do something like this. 

I met Darren in the usual studio and he was there working on the equipment. I sat down in front of the sound booth. 

He faced me and sighed. Great, was he telling me my career is over? 

"Why didn't you tell me Liam was the ex?" he asked. 

I was surprised. I figured he'd yell at me for screwing up, but he was so calm and looked concerned. 

"I didn't want to cause unnecessary problems" I muttered. 

He nodded and pulled me into a hug "You look like you need this" 

I hugged back "You have no idea" 

He pulled away and sat back in his chair "So I guess you don't want that song on the new album?"

I jerked my head up "There's still a new album?" 

He looked surprised and confused "What do you mean? Of course there's still an album" 

"Well I just figured that after everything" 

"Gracie, don't blame yourself. What everyone is saying about you is not true and who gives a shit about the video? Exactly so just focus on what you do best. Making great music" 

"I've written a lot since returning" I said. 

"Good, because we're recording some today" he sat back "So about the song?" he asked. 

I let out a big sigh "I don't care anymore"

"Simon still loves it, how about we make it a bonus track for a limited edition?" 

I nodded "Sounds good, but I probably won't sing it live again" I said. 

"Understandable"

"So can I show you the new song?" I asked. 

He nodded, happily, turning his chair towards me. 

I got up and dragged the electric piano over and he raised an eyebrow at me "A ballad?" 

"Is that a problem?" I replied. 

He shook his head "No, it just means that you have been living deep in your feelings lately"

I sat down in front of the piano and looked  at Darren. 

Simon came in and nodded at me. There was someone with him that looked familar, but I couldn't make out. 

I started playing a the tune. It was one that I started writing while with Liam on the beach. It was my song that completed all the strung emotions that still lingered near me. 

(Play video) 

Where's my will,
Can I find a way,
The earth is wild,
And I can't sit still

A familiar sound,
A familiar voice,
Makes it so hard,
To make a choice,
I don't know if I should stay

A thousand stars,
You will have my word,
I'm bright enough,
To fill these cracks

A familiar place,
A familiar voice,
Makes it so hard.
To make a choice,
I don't know if I should stay

I ran to you like water
I threw my body in
And I'll stand up on the ocean
Just to show you that I am strong, strong
But what if I am wrong

A familiar look
A familiar smile
Makes it so hard
To make a choice
I don't know if I should stay away  

I stopped playing and Darren smiled "God, you make my job easy"

I smiled and saw Simon still standing there. "Hi, Simon" I said. 

"That song makes me excited for your new album" he motioned to the guy with him "This is Shay. I thought you two should formally meet"

I extended my hand to him and he shook it.

"It's great to finally meet you. That song, along with your others are great"

"Thanks"

"I can't wait to collab with you; I wrote a great part for it"

"That sounds great" 

Maybe this time I really should just focus on my music and take everything from there. No matter what, I'd always have that with me.