It's Gotta Be You

-55-

I got changed into my outfit for the stage, anxiously picking away at my nails and feeling like I had forgotten how to breathe. 

The dress was tight on me and as I looked at myself in the mirror, I wanted to shatter it. If I ever go on tour again, I swear I'm going to dress casually and not make a spectacle of myself in these outfits anymore.

At least my makeup was pretty.

I frowned in the mirror. I already want to burn this outfit.

After getting my hair done and my shoes were put on, I walked out of the dressing room, seeing Daren and Simon at the end of the hallway. 

I really didn't want them to see this.

Louis walked up to me "You look great"

"I look ridiculous"

He stopped me from walking and looked at me "Whatever happens tonight, just ignore what is said and focus on what is best for you" he sighed "Do what you need to do"

I nodded.

"I have to finish getting ready, but fair warning, everyone got ready early to see your final set from backstage"

I groaned and wanted to throw a temper tantrum.

"You give the performance of your life and lose yourself in your music"

I watched him walk back to his dressing room and I continued down the hall, feeling like I was going to projectile vomit as soon as I stepped out on the stage.

"Gracie, you ready?" Darren asked, wrapping an arm around me.

At least I'll still have Darren at the end of the night. I'm going to need him now more than ever once this is over.

"Darren won't stop talking about this song; we can't wait to hear it live" Simon said, leading me forward.

I was given my microphone and ear piece. 

Maybe if I'm lucky, I'll black out and then I won't have to perform the song ever, and it can just live in my songbook forever.

I looked behind me, seeing the guys and Hayden there, ready to support me. Niall was grinning at me, while Liam was looking at me lovingly.

I walked out on stage and 'Alice in Wonderland' started playing.

There's no turning back now. 

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You know that moment in your life, where you know everything is about to change? That moment that as soon as it arrives, you feel your world alter and you suddenly see things in a new way. Sometimes it's a moment that scares you, but you know you'll be relieved to finally get it over with, despite how awful it feels.

This was my moment. This moment would decide whether or not I could even call Liam and Niall my friends. 

My breathing was slow as I slowly walked to the piano. 

Even though I currently hate this song, it meant the world to me. It's the outcome of realizing my true feelings for Liam and how I discovered they were never gone. 

Niall won't understand my feelings for Liam, and I don't expect him to. 

I just want to get it over with and then wake up tomorrow.

As I looked over, I saw Darren, Simon, Harry, Hayden, Liam, Niall, Zayn, and Louis standing there, watching me.

Louis knew what was going to happen, but everyone else was all smiles.