Homophobia is Gay ~ Jeffmads ☆COMPLETED☆

IV

"You're what?"

"I'm gay..." James said again, but quieter.

James was looking down. He flinched. He knew what was coming to him. But a punch never came. Nothing came into contact with James' skin.

"Aren't you going to hit me or something?" James looked up and saw Thomas' emotionless face. Thomas shook his head.

"I'm not going to hurt you." he said blankly, then turned sharply and walked away.

James stood there in the middle of the hall with tears streaming down his cheeks. He felt a few people pat his back. 

And then the bell rang. James wiped his face and headed towards his study hall class. (A/N: at my school we have a homeroom class which is pretty much study hall)

~(warning for suicidal thoughts/actions)

James sat alone at lunch. 

Thomas wasn't there.

In fact, Thomas hadn't been at school for the rest of the day.

James hadn't eaten anything all day. By the time he got home, he was starving. James dropped his bag in his room and searched his house for his parents.

They weren't home.

James fell onto his bed and broke down again. Tears fell down his cheeks rapidly. Thoughts of Thomas raced through his mind. 

Is he really going to leave me be? Or is he lying?

This was almost like my dream... I really am disgusting.

James let out broken sobs, clutching his pillow tightly. 

I should just kill myself. No one would miss me. My parents are never even home, Thomas hates me now, and I have no other friends...

James sat up slowly. He unplugged the radio beside his bed and walked into his bathroom. Suicidal thoughts clouded his mind as he plugged in the radio and started to fill the bathtub.

Once the bathtub was full, James stepped into it fully clothed. He turned on his radio and grabbed it, sitting down in the tub. James sobbed more as the radio hovered the water. 

Should I really do this?

Yes, James decided as he let the radio drop. He closed his eyes tightly and waited for something; electricity running through his body (A/N: idk if that's how that works,,,) or a numb feeling. Just something.

But nothing came. 

He wasn't electrocuted. 

The radio sat in the water with James, who had realized what he just tried to do.

James started to sob louder and harder. 

Fuck you, Thomas.

~

A/N: that suicide scene there was based off the one scene in emo the musical when ethan tried to commit suicide in his bathtub with a radio,,,,

idk why I !Ade this escalate so quickly its only chapter 4,,,,

also next chapter is with thomas because he's not as bad as y'all think okay,,,,,

~T