Effeminate | Jikook ✓

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Bun 🐰💕

JIMIN
oh god, it's been so long since ive had to relive this...

JIMIN
this might be harder than I thought..

JIMIN
geez how do I even..

JUNGKOOK
Jimin... you dont have to

JUNGKOOK
I can wait, it's no problem, not at all

JUNGKOOK
if you're not ready--

JIMIN
im ready, Kook-ah

JIMIN
don't worry 💕

JIMIN
it's just a little difficult to bring up I guess.. it was hard trying to get through..

JIMIN
a lot was going on with my body, it didn't help that I couldn't at least get my mentality in check

JIMIN
im glad I eventually got out, I really am

JIMIN
otherwise..

JIMIN
I wouldn't be with you 💕

JUNGKOOK
im really glad too, not just for that reason

JUNGKOOK
are you sure you can say it? don't pressure yourself babe

JIMIN
no, it's okay :) it'll help to get it off my chest

JIMIN
ill just start at the beginning I guess..

JIMIN
so, as you know.. I had a boyfriend named Hyunseok

JIMIN
id like to say he had too've somewhat liked me, I guess

JIMIN
he did date me after all..

JIMIN
I don't think he ever really liked ME tho

JIMIN
he liked what I BECAME for him, that's why it was so toxic

JIMIN
he never reciprocated..

JIMIN
he only wanted to use me since I was nothing more than a "pretty body" to him

JIMIN
he took advantage of me so much, it hurts to look back on..

JIMIN
he completely changed who I was so it would satisfy him and what he wanted

JIMIN
he knew I was too smitten to go against the word.. he never even had to worry about holding back or being shady

JIMIN
he just went for it

JIMIN
we didnt start dating right away, we talked for about a month? maybe only a couple weeks.. I don't remember

JIMIN
the transition started taking place almost immediately though and I was just desperate for him to want me

JIMIN
god it's so pathetic..

JIMIN
but yeah.. as my body got more and more effeminate

JIMIN
he started getting more and more affectionate..