Effeminate | Jikook ✓

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"can I ask you something, kookie?" the blonde started as the two of them wandered down the late night street, hands interlaced with smiles on their face.

"what's up?" the younger prompted, leading the latter towards their dorm unit.

honestly, jimin's been wondering this for a week or two now. ever since it happened, really. he just wasn't quite sure how to go about asking it.

at least for the time being, he felt he needed to know as soon as posible. forget the formalities.

as the two of them approached the blonde's dorm, that's when he finally let the question slip passed his lips.

"how'd you know it was love?"

the wonder honestly threw him back for a minute, the younger's brain churned it's gears as he processed the question and thought of how to answer it as best he could.

for jungkook, it wasn't so easy to recognize right away, it was more of a gradual realization instead.

to anybody who considered themselves an outside source, he's always done a great job at expressing those feelings without ever acknowledging that they were there.

the young boy failed to think about it long enough to come to the assured truth. one day, he eventually came to his amazing, long awaited epiphany.

it was actually the same day he got escorted into the hospital.

before answering, jungkook quickly lead the two of them into jimin's apartment, closing the door behind them as he sat them down onto the blonde's bed.

"honestly.." trailing his unsure start, the raven found himself reaching out to cup his boyfriend's face, holding it the same as always. "I only knew because it's something ive never felt before."

jimin tilted his head in confusion.

that seemed like backwards logic to him.

"what?"

"I mean.. it took me this long to say it and realize that I meant it.." the raven quickly added, just to clarify. "but it's obvious ive always felt something different for you. I protected you, cared for you. ive never done that before, it wasn't my thing. after we started dating it only started developing more, I just had no idea."

the blonde needed some more verification, he's been under the impression that jungkook couldn't even feel that for him yet.

maybe not even at all.

"it'd explain a lot actually.. like why I was so gentle with you, why I never wanted to hurt you, why I had such a soft spot for you." the latter chucked. "something about you reeled me, I wanted you before I even told you that I did. I made sure to put you first. I wanted to save you from hurting yourself, all of that's been new to me."

maybe now the pieces were starting to come together a little bit.

even jimin himself couldn't deny that jungkook always treated him different. treated him better, if you will.

"it might've even started ever since I knew the real you." shrugging like it was so casual to admit, jungkook leant forward to press a small kiss on the latter's lips, allowing them to linger before pulling him into an embrace instead. "there was just.. the one moment where I knew."

"when was that?"

"when I realized you'd be waking up without me."

jimin felt the arms around him wrap even tighter. "how'd that make you realize?"

"well.." he sighed, nuzzling his face into the latter's. "my whole life I always made sure to leave before she woke up, I didn't want the intimate next morning wake up routine. I never cared, we didn't mean anything to each other."

that was very true, jungkook was notorious for never staying long enough to be seen again.

his mind told him to run off, escape while you have the chance.

he couldn't afford having girls asking him for more if he slept with them the whole night. that was more than he was ever ready to commit to.

he always left without a second thought.

jimin, on the other hand.. jimin was another story. he wanted to wake up with him, he wanted to hold the blonde in arms and kiss him first thing.

it was inevitable what that meant he felt.

"when the accident happened and I realized you'd have to wake up without me, I lost it.. I freaked out.. I felt like I failed you, there was no way you wouldn't be hurt by it. I didn't want you experiencing that again, I knew what it would've looked it so I went absolutely ballistic, all I wanted to do was be there for you."

"jungkook..."

"I didn't want you thinking I left you when I didnt. I didn't leave you, I was coming back. I would never leave you.." the younger sighed, embracing the blonde with everything he had left. "the moment I realized I wasn't waking up with you, that's when it hit me."

jimin honestly wasn't expecting it to be so layered and meaningful.

staying with someone after sex obviously meant a lot to jungkook, it played a significant role of love to him.

jungkook just told him that he wanted to wake up with him; of course it'd be his awakening.

leaning in to press a soft kiss at the youger's cheek, jimin expressed the most fondness he's ever felt in his entire life. "you never have to worry about that, kookie.. i've been in love with you since you saved me, there's nothing you could do to drive me away."

"good." jungkook dove right into his boyfriend, making himself the smaller spoon. "I never want you running away from me again."