Mirror, everyday you do this to me, reflect simply what i do not want to see.
You're killing me mirror you may not see my body is not what it could be.
Bathroom of torture, scales as knifes and mirrors, mirrors which hold upon my life.
Fat, all i see is fat. My blurred vision fades towards my lightly shook up hands, clutched onto my flab above my trousers. I just couldn't hold back the pain, my eyes flickered dropping what i hoped was water weight. I hovered down placing my cold bum on the hard floor with my feet still placed on the scales reading 56kgs as a stray tear rolls down my face.
I swore to myself that i'd do better next summer, but i knew i wouldn't. My thighs touched, my collar bones hid among the fat and my size 10 ass was just too big. These are only some of my flaws among the rest. "Anna!" Wiping the tears clear from my cheeks i rose to see who called my name, it was mother. Coughing to hide the break in my voice i answered, "yes?" I ran downstairs as much as i could without losing my breath to see my best friend, Beth. I grabbed her in my arms squashing her twig like body into me. Without a doubt she'd be choked underneath my arms, but i still hugged her anyway. Her voice croaked as she went "Anna i haven't been away for that long!" She had been on holiday in Portugal for a month, i was so jealous. Her tan highlighted her collarbones which shone like a devil into my eyes, all in all she looked, well she looked gorgeous. She explored my body wrapped in a towel, feeling really self conscious, i shouted at her "whats the matter!" "Anna what are you wearing?" I was wrapped in a towel hiding my naked balloon body, " i have just got out the shower!" I hesitated, "well your hair is still dry an-". i butted in quickly "i mean i was just about to go in the shower" smiling hugely at her as she just shrugged and made her way to my kitchen. Honestly that girl can eat 8 meals everyday with out even gaining an inch of fat!
After Beth pretty much cleared my cupboards, she left, leaving me to finish the summer homework i forgot about. After doing some research about global warming i finished my final question and lounged back against my chair. Looking down towards my baggy jumper i then again saw the fat, images flashed through my mind of inspiration of what i could be. I leaped back on to my computer, click here, there, and tabs full of images, diet plans and exercises popped up. I scanned every page jotting down any tips, ideas and a shopping list. Apples, oranges, chicken, carrots, lettuce- but it wasn't enough mum was never gonna buy all of these for me we are not a particularly rich family and we only have enough to buy the weekly shopping we need. I teared the page of my jot pad which was left with' EAT LESS ' .
I jumped on to my bed wrapping myself in my double quilt. Laying there thinking about how i am gonna pull of eating less, exercise more.
Mum works everyday except Sunday so surely she wouldn't notice, right?
