Lessons From Romance

Hello to Misery

The feelings weren't very clear or easy to sort out when Namjoo stumbled into her apartment. She felt stomped on...pitied by Chae Yoon and it didn't feel very good. Chae Yoon had made her sound dumb for finally coming out with her feelings. Worst yet, she suddenly felt unsure about Luhan.

At the beginning it had been all about that girl who'd left him and how he wanted her around because she possessed his mother's touch. As Namjoo sat there on the couch counting the hours she wasn't sure whether she felt very confident anymore. Was she...getting too ahead of herself?

She was sure that the way Luhan had held her discreetly had meant something. The way he'd looked and smiled at her...she thought she'd felt something through it. Was that really playing with her? Would he go all the way to doing things like come running in the middle of the night because she'd called? That was sincerity wasn't it?

Feeling even more flustered Namjoo stood up and paced around restlessly.

"Forget it, forget it, forget it," Namjoo rubbed her head, "you can't know if Chae Yoon's telling the truth. She doesn't even know Luhan."

Pressing her lips together anxiously she forced herself to nod. There was no way Chae Yoon could know what Luhan was thinking. Suddenly the flashback of seeing Chae Yoon and Luhan talking to each other at the resort entered her mind. The two of them had looked at each other unhappily.

Shaking her head aside she pushed the thoughts away. She could really only find out if she listened to what Luhan had to say that weekend. She would definitely wait to hear him out and if it wasn't anything that would hurt her, she'd tell him about her feelings.

Opposite to her expectations she hadn't slept well the night before. There was a headache drumming inside her head when she woke up. Assuming it was because she couldn't sleep she got up anyway and grabbed something to eat. She wasn't supposed to meet with Luhan till evening so she had lots of time to spare.

Leaving her apartment to grab a cup of coffee from the coffee house nearby Namjoo thought to clear her mind a little. She was feeling more anxious by the hour and she wasn't sure if it was a bad thing or not. When she finally grabbed her cup of coffee she hugged the window seat to watch the scenery. Unlike the other sunny days, the clouds had gathered overhead forecasting a gray day with rain.

Namjoo felt like groaning. She didn't want it to rain. It was supposed to be a good day, so why wasn't the sun out?

Grumbling to herself she finished the rest of her coffee and quickly walked back to her apartment. The day seemed longer than any other as she rolled to and fro on her couch, flipping the channels tediously. She couldn't concentrate.

What was it Luhan would say to her? Why wait until the weekend?

Namjoo spent an hour pacing back and forth in front of her window, staring at the time before suddenly rushing into her room. Opening her closet she stared at her variety of clothes and suddenly regretted not being more into fashion like Chae Yoon, who knew how to dress pretty. When it finally came down to the day she needed to dress to impress, she had no skills.

Grabbing a dress to try on she spun around in front of the mirror, but feeling uncomfortable grabbed a pair of shorts and a blouse. Recalling that there was a possibility of rain she went for dress pants and another blouse. Deeming that she looked overdressed she opted for her usual at last.

Exactly who was she dressing for anyway?

Throwing on a pair of jeans and a white tee she grabbed a thick cardigan in case it would get cold. Turning around she grabbed her phone to stare at the time. Sighing she sat down on her bed, tapping her finger on the screen of her phone before she felt something bounce on her arm.