Come Break Me Down

Chapter 26

I left Sierra's house so angry and pissed off. I decided to call Shannon, and was thankful that answered on the second ring. "Tell me you fixed it." He said without even a hello.

I laughed, "Wish I could. I think I fucked up."

I could hear him sigh and it was followed by him repeating my statement like a question. "You think you fucked up?"

I stared at the darkness in front of me, biting the inside of my cheek so hard I could taste blood. The metallic tang on the back of my tongue lingered and I let out a frustrated breath. "She pissed me off and we had a very bad fight. I just wanted to give her a taste of her own medicine, Shan. I told her that I wasn't sure if we should get back together right away. I guess I just wanted her to feel as badly as I did."

"You're an idiot!" I wasn't used to having my brother talk to me quite like this. Usually he was asking me for advice. "Man, you went there to get her back, not piss her off more. Yeah, you definitely fucked up! Like, I don't even know what to tell you."

"I'm pissed that she is still mad, especially when I didn't even do anything wrong." I was raising my voice and trying to make him see things from my side.

"I guess she is still pissed. You should've told her about looney tunes way before her dumb ass showed up at your house." He huffed. "So, wait a second, let's think about this. If some dude just showed up, telling you that he was fucking Ava, what would you do?"

His question immediately pissed me off and I could feel the tension in my shoulders. She and I had been through so much. I couldn't imagine her being with anyone else. "I don't know. She wouldn't do that.

"Exactly, but you know you'd be jealous. Give her some space Jared."

"Shit, I have a long drive back to LA."

"Yeah you do, but I'll have to call you back, I'm kind of busy right now."
Apparently, he must have company and didn't want to keep her waiting.

"Okay, later." I ended the call and set the phone on the seat next to me. After talking to Shannon, I started to realize how stupid I actually sounded. Is that what I really wanted.....to make her feel bad? I was driving all the way back to LA alone, because I couldn't swallow my pride and tell her how much she meant to me. She needed to know how much I hated not having her there to talk to when I went home, or how much I hated not having her there to wrap my arms around at night. God, I hate waking up in our bed all alone and the thought of doing it in the morning was so bleak. Even though I had been out of town for filming most of the time lately, it still bothered me so much.

'What the fuck did I do?' I shook my head and slammed my hands against the wheel. All of this shit over Arianna and her stupid games. Ava really had no way of knowing if what she was saying was true or not. She should have more trust in me, but in all honesty, Shan was right, if some guy did show up saying the he was having an affair with her, would I just let it go?

It was pointless to turn around and go back to Sierra's house. I knew how she could be when she was angry, she wouldn't hear a word I was saying. So, I decided to continue on home and maybe give her a few days to calm down. I avoided my phone as much as possible after receiving a few texts from Arianna. I refused to engage in her bullshit.

At home, I also avoided my bedroom as much as possible, my nights would pretty much be spent on the couch. I turned on the music as loud as I could, my sad attempt to drown out the depressing silence. Here I was at almost four in the morning, bags under my eyes from no sleep, and feeling sorry for myself.
I sat down on the couch, just trying
to make my body relax and eventually fell asleep.

The music was still going when I woke up to the bright sunlight invading the room. My head was pounding and my back was killing me from laying twisted across the couch. I stood up and tried to stretch my body out, only to make it worse.

I slept for about six hours. How the hell did I manage that? After a long hot shower, I made myself something to eat and checked my messages. Of course she didn't call or text, but Arianna did.

I had given my crew the day off and I decided to go take a walk. The weather was great and it would help clear my head.

I spent the rest of the day trying to decide what kind of candy and flowers to send her. Maybe I was ready to take the next step in our relationship. I went to my mom for advice on this one and sat there, taking in everything she said to me. She put things into perspective for me about how short life really is and how lucky a person is once they find someone to share it all with.

Shannon's car was parked outside when I arrived, but he wasn't in it. Opening the door, I stepped inside and called out, "I know, I'm an idiot and have to go back there to apologize and tell her-" there she was sitting on the couch.

Shannon came out of the kitchen eating an apple. "You're welcome, idiot." He said to me as he walked to the door, but stopped before exiting to look past me. "At least he knows he's an idiot, Ava." He then took his leave.