Escape

What have i done?

**!!Warning! If you don't like reading depressing chapters with selfharm and stuff don't read the chapter. Macy will get flashbacks from her abusive kidnappers and stuff!!**

I woke up the next day feeling really happy. I mean how could i not be Happy with My brother having a family and the football team. I layed in bed thinking, when it happend.

*flashback*

I came home to My kidnappers house. As soon as i closed the door telling Filled My ears.

"MACY MESSI! WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN?!"

I shook in fear as i saw Miranda holding something and telling At me. I knew what was coming.

She hit me over and over again with the belt in her hand that was now bloody.

"P-please", i stuttered. My back was hurting from all the injuries caused by a belt. I closed My eyes and felt tears running down my cheeks.

"Oh are you crying little baby", I heard Miranda talk in a baby voice but I knew that she was smirking. Then i felt a burning sensation on My shoulder. I yelled out in pain.

She hit me a Fiew more Times and i felt the burning sensation over and over again. Mhen she left i quickly ran to My room locked the door and then i collapsed on the floor.

I called My best friend knowing she was the only one i could ever tell. After two signals i could hear her soft voice.

"Macy?", her voice sounded worried. She worried about me.

"A-A-ah-Anja", i sobbed, i couldn't Keep My tears in.

"What happend?", she asked concerned.

"M-M-M-Mir-rand-a", I was sobbing more then I ever had before, I started to rock back and forth and I knew, it was happening again and I could do nothing. I found it hard to breath, struggling to focus on anything I could hear Anja's desperate yells trying to help me. She knew it to. It was happening again. I had a panic attack. I fainted that day. Anja's mom hadn't let her go here since it was dark, her mom didn't even know that I was abused.

I remember waking up on the flour an hour later. That's when I decided that i couldn't Keep My promise Anymore. I cut My wrists. I took the old familiar item in my left hand. My hands were shaking and I was sweating. I can't break my promise I thought as i put the blade on my skin. I sliced it over my skin once, then twice, then more and more until there were blood dripping from my wrist. I dropped the blade as I started to sobb. What had I done.

I broke the only promise I ever made to myself. To never cut again. I broke it.

*end of flashback*

I cried as the memories played in my head. What if they come after me. I Layed In My bed still sobbing as Leo ran into my room.

"Are you alright?", he asked worriedly sitting on the edge of my bed. I nodded not being able to talk. I was crying to much.

"Let me know if you need anything ok?", he said as he left the room closing the door after him.

That's it. I'm only a burden to everyone. I stood up from the bed and made my way to the bathroom. I locked the door and turned around facing the sink. I looked around for something sharp, I found a razor. I put the razor on my wrist. This is it. I sobbed as I cut my wrists. I dropped the razor and sat down on the flour sobbing and hugging my knees. What have I done?

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A/N: sorry for depressing chapter :/ I just felt like you know she has actually been kidnapped and I don't think you would be totally fine like the scars are still there you know... Anyways here you go new chapter for you Muffins :)