Me and Harry have made up its just we aren't close we are friends that don't talk. I was still nerves of this whole me and Luke thing and I don't know if we should be together because were best buds and we have nick names but its just Niall knows Harry knows and I don't want anyone else to know except from us. I just got a text saying Hey Ashton how are you I hope your doing fine its just some thing worse has happened than your mother she tried to kill Lauren,she didn't realise that she's been so upset that you're dad has passed away. she wanted Lauren to come with her to be reunited with her father. I feel so sorry for you. Before you're mum commuted suicide she forced Lauren to take drugs and Lauren did. Lauren is having problems with her heart and her lungs. Harry is still with the foster parents and you're mum hasn't laid a hair on Harry I hope you get this message and I hope Lauren is okay. My mum tried to kill her own kid. I should of taken Lauren with me when I moved out with the band I'm a terrible brother omg what am I going to do. I ran to the bathroom and took the knife from the kitchen down stairs and I cut my wrist,blood like as red as well blood I didn't want to scream I didn't want to tell anyone that what my mum tried to do and I defiantly didn't want to tell anyone that I self harm I was so scared to even walk out that door and see Luke. Also tomorrow there is a convert that we are doing and were performing Diana,heartbreak girl and strong and there all formed around my mum. I had to go outside and get some fresh air first I putted on my bracelets so that know one can see my marks. I walked out of my room to see no one there I went out of the hotel to see 37 fangirl's I put on one of Liam's coats and one of Luke's glasses because everyone went out shopping. I walked out side and I walked all the way to the park only there was my brother! I ran right to him and gave him a massive hug.
