It was 2016 when I was blessed with you and I loved you since then. I supported you. I vouched for you. I was excited to see you released from jail. I was happy that your career was taking off. I was disappointed in some of your choice of words. I was pissed at you for giving the wrong niggas attention. I defended you when everyone said you were trash. I was proud of your albums. I was in love with you and I still am. I was proud of your progress in mind and body. I hated that you were going back to jail but when you came back home I couldn't be anything but happy at how you returned. You came back a new man and you came back on a mission to do good. I was amazed at the good you were doing. From the start I knew you had a heart of gold. I loved that you wanted to rewrite your story and change how you were perceived. I loved 17. I loved '?'. I love Skins. I'm hurt that you're not here anymore and I wished this was fake but I know it's not and I promise to stand by you and honor you and uplift your name and be proud of your son and be caring of your mother and live up to your word. I promise to try to be a better person and do more for people and be true to myself and do what makes me happy and love myself and I just want you to know that I love you Jahseh and I can't wait to finally meet you.. You've been on my mind more and more and I feel like my time may be coming and I wanna live my life but I can't help but wanna be with you. At one point you were the only person I could rely on for guidance and uplifting and you helped me so much, I can't thank you enough. I wish this was fake but it's not and I still can't come to terms with it.
