Ive been sitting in the same chair for six hours just staring at the clock. Just praying that he's going to be okay. Just hoping he'll make it through surgery okay. If I lost him , I loose everything. Now I know how he felt when he nearly lost me. Afraid and alone.
"Here I brought you some" Ethan speaks breaking me out of my trance. He holds out a coffee cup but before I could shoo him away he says "I added the right amount of sugar how you like it." I weakly smile "thank you E." Who would've thought I'd be in this position right now? Who'd ever thought I'd be engaged to Grayson Dolan let alone meet him. The world works in mysterious ways.
I lay my head onto Ethan's shoulder and he pulls me in close. "He's going to be okay, he's a fighter." Ethan speaks as he kisses my forehead lightly. "I feel like this is all my f-" "do not blame it on yourself." He interrupts. I sigh deeply knowing he was right. Part of me wanted to believe it was my fault but i knew deep down it was never my fault.
"Why don't you go home and get rest,I'll call you when he wakes up" Ethan suggest and I shake my head no. "I want to be the first person he see when we wakes up, I need to talk to him. I need to let him know how much I love him." Ethan nods in acknowledgment leaving me to be. "Please wake up soon" I whisper as I hold his Polaroid close to my chest.
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It's crazy how we had only taken this Polaroid two days ago. Now I'm nearly loosing him.
