Dusk Till Dawn

m i s s

Cause if you like the way you look that much
Oh baby you should go and love yourself
- Justin Bieber

Lima hari berlalu, dan keadaan gadis itu sekarang sudah mulai membaik. Namun perasaan rindu masih sangat kuat ia rasakan, dan perasaan rindu itu yang kadang bisa membuat ia menangis kembali dan mengingat kejadian saat pertama kali hati nya benar-benar hancur berkeping-keping dalam satu malam.

"I always miss him:( hmm apa gue coba chat dia aja kali ya? Kalau gue kangen sama dia, haduhhh bismillah deh."
Kata Elisha yang berbicara pada dirinya sendiri.

*Line Chat

Elisha :
"Ngit"
"Believe me now i miss you, it's hard for me when i'm always force to forget you it's make me sick"
Read 08.00 am

Langit :
"Yeah, i bealive you"
"I miss you like you do"
"I know it's hard, but don't worry it's the best for us"
"Yah, i can't let you go too"
"I know how it feels, deep heart pain."
Read 08.05 am

Elisha :
"I just want you stay here for along time, that's all."
Read 08.07 am

Langit :
"Hey, i want you know one thing"
"I'm always here, just chat me if you want I have time for that."
Read 08.08 am

Elisha :
"No, you not here for me"
"I'm here alone and trying to forget you is really sick, i can't bear with all this."
Read 08.09 am

Langit :
"I know, i feel like you too"
"But if you miss me just chat me, i have time for you chat"
"That's all could we do, understood?"
Read 08.10 am

Elisha :
"But i know things will not be as it used to be."
Read 08.12 am

Langit :
"I bealive, it could."
Read 08.13 am

Elisha :
"Really?"
"This is bad things for me, when you tell me to forget about us"
"I hate this, when i have to do that."
Read 08.14 am

Langit :
"Ya udah sekarang mau lu apa? Just like old days?"
Read 08.15 am

Elisha :
"Gue cuman mau kita balik kayak awal lagi ngit, when we both loved each other tanpa lu harus nyuruh gue buat ngelupain lu"
"I also want you not to leave me here alone, that's make me happy when i'm with you. What's wrong?"
Read 08.17 am

Langit :
"Nothing wrong, i just want enjoy my life alone and no love's problem. Just it"
"Just forget everything about me and leave me alone"
"That's all you need to do, is it simple?"
Read 08.18 am

Elisha :
"Nggak! Itu nggak gampang, ini bukan segampang membalikkan telapak tangan."
"Believe me, all this hurts for me when i'm forced to forget you"
"Why you never understand this is really difficult?"
Read 08.20 am

Langit :
"Cuman ngehapus semua memori tentang gue sha, leave me, find another boy and fall in love with other guy"
"That's it's, it makes me happy to seeing you happy"
Read 08.21 am

Elisha :
"This is verry bad and sad for me!"
Read 08.22 am

Langit :
"No it's not plz, i don't want make you sad. Bealive me this is the best for us."
"And now what do you want?"
"I give you my time, if you need me just chat me. That's it's!"
"Enough, i'm tired with this situation!"
Read 08.22 am

Elisha :
"Why you always tell me to forget you???"
Read 08.23 am

Langit :
"Enough, we're done here!"
Read 08.24 am

Elisha :
"Gue udah ngejelasin apa yang gue mau but you always tell me to go"
"Lu tau? I never expected that we would be like this."
Read 08.25 am

Langit :
"Pfftt, i knew it."
Read 08.26 am

Elisha :
"Hm, you don't know what i feel's like to be position."
"You to know one thing, i have a reason why i can like you and the reason why i want to keep everything."
Read 08.27 am

Langit :
"No, i don't wanna know."
Read 08.28 am

Elisha :
"Yah well we're done here, and sorry all this time i bother you"
Read 08.30 am
Itu adalah pesan Elisha yang terakhir dibaca oleh langit.

Elisha yang membaca setiap balasan pesan dari langit hanya bisa menangis merasakan perih yang ia rasakan, kata-kata langit yang begitu menusuk dan seperti menyayat-nyayat hati Elisha.

"Sumpah gue gak nyangka lu bakalan ngomong kayak gitu ngit, tapi ya udah lah buat apa juga gue nangisin lu terus sedangkan lu aja udah gak peduli lagi sama gue. Gak seharusnya gue ngechat kayak gitu ke lu, seharusnya gue sadar kalau lu udah emang gak mau lagi gue ada dan seharusnya juga gue udah harus belajar move on dari lu."
Batin elisha sembari ia mengelap air matanya.

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