jeongyeon,
do you know what the word "sadness" is?
it was the feeling of when you called me crying.
when we decided to video chat, i was greeted with your teary-faced self instead of the cheerful girl i knew.
the sight immediately broke my heart.
you were sobbing uncontrollably about how your boyfriend dumped you over a text while you were working, and you could not let the tears flow.
every word you said, it pierced my heart further.
i truly wished that i could be by your side and comfort you, because the words that came through the screen couldn't match that.
when i saw my best friend and loved one stuttering in tears, that was the feeling of sadness.
when i heard you talking about your boyfriend, that was the feeling of sadness.
just seeing you sad, that was the feeling of sadness.
i knew then that i wanted to be the one for you then. the one to be able to treat you right, the one to love you with all my heart, the one to never make you feel a tinge of sadness again.
even if you were going to be selfish, i didn't want to hurt you and make you sad. because jeongyeon, you have that power over me. you are able to make me care for you when you don't deserve it, and decide to forgive you when you break my heart. as i'm writing these letters stumbling drunk next to the empty bottles of beer, i laugh at myself: i'm so foolish.
jeongyeon, you showed me what sadness was.
and i'll never forgive you for that.
-jimin
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added ddaeng bc i wanted. |
all of y'all to feel what i |
felt when i was roasted |
so harshly :"") |
and when joon stutters |
OMG AHHH |
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