jeongyeon,
do you know what the words "moving on" are?
it is the feeling of me becoming a kpop idol and stop thinking about you.
i still vividly remember about the days where i would dance and sing with you. you would always compliment on how skilled i was in dancing and how angelic my voice was.
and for that, i would like to thank you.
because i'm becoming a kpop idol now.
after 1 hard year of training, i debuted with 6 of my friends as BTS.
i found my passion in singing and dancing, jeongyeon.
and i thought that i lost all my passion
for you.
but i didn't.
whenever performances and stages were tough, my mind would just automatically switch to you, when we were simply just laughing over silly stuff or eating some good comfort food, it motivated me to do better.
why, jeongyeon, why?
when i try to push you away, i just end up closer to you.
it has been 2 years. 2 whole fucking years.
mina is now training as well and i hope that she can debut. then, i would need to break up with her.
it had to happen sooner or later only because she was a painkiller to ease my illness of you.
temporary.
and now, i'm scribbling words on crumpled notes that you'll never see before my live stage performance, because I just can't move on.
you showed me these many emotions that i never thought i could have felt. and when i needed you the most, you left me in the lurch.
but why do i always find myself coming back to you?
there was never a feeling of moving on.
jeongyeon, you showed me what moving on is.
although it never will work.
and I'll never forgive you for that.
-jimin
