(Hi! I know i haven't been updating much. I've had writers block, this oneshot is just to get me out of that so i can finish your requests! Oh, the song at the top is important too! This has a suicide warning [its towards the end.] I also skip around in the song a bit.)
A rolling girl is always far away
In her dream world she longs to stay
You were currently sitting in class, it was the last hour before you could leave, and all you could think about was visiting the dark world and seeing ralsei. You stared at the board, a blank expression crossed your face.
So much noise buzzing round inside her head
All the worries never end, all the worries never end...
You imagined walking the paths with ralsei, just talking. You longed for that, which somehow made time go so much slower for you. You checked the clock; 50 minutes until you could leave, 50 minutes until you could see ralsei.
She fails once more, fails once more,
You noticed the teacher passing out graded tests, when she placed yours on your desk, you noticed a big "F" in red. "God damn it." You thought, tears welling up in your eyes.
After searching for the odd one out in the crowd,
she starts spinning again...
You felt like the only person in the whole class who couldn't figure out anything your teacher said, tears fell down your cheeks, you sat there, staring at the F that was in front of you.
One more time, one more time,
"I think I will keep rolling on today too"
You slowly raised your hand, as the teacher walked over, you quietly pointed to the F on your paper, trying to hide the shakey-ness in your voice, you quietly asked, "c-can i retake this?" You held back tears. "No, i'm sorry (Y/N). It was a test, you already know you can't retake those." Your teacher said. You nodded, she was right, you did know. "I-it's okay, no problem." You said as she nodded and walked away.
And so she says, so she says
Making sure that each of her words is sincere
"I-it's okay, no problem." You said as she nodded and walked away. You looked down at the failing grade and crumpled the paper. You saw someone stand up and walk over to you. "Are you okay?" They asked, you didn't know them, but..."No, I'm in a daze.
Trying to escape but I just don't see the point.
Maybe I should just stop breathing." You said softly, you knew they didnt care, they showed it. They rubbed your back, saying it would be okay, before they walked back to their seat.
A rolling girl feels she has reached the end,
The colours blend and can't be felt
The bell rung suddenly, time had passed by faster than you thought. You stood up, grabbing your things and quickly trying to get out of the classroom. You wanted to see ralsei one last time. One last time. The school was filled with different colors, but they all looked dull and blended with the tears in your eyes.
All these voices are fighting to be heard
They're all merging into one, they're all merging into one.
Even the once cheerful voices of the yelling kids and the happily talking friends sounded dull to you. You wanted to know what it felt like to be them, not anymore. All you wanted was to see ralsei. You only heared one voice at the moment. A voice in you head, saying "you have to see him, one last time."
"No problem" is so easily said
but now, those words have no meaning left
You were so close to the closet, you werent paying attention to anything, and since you werent, you bumped right into someone, "i-i'm sorry!" You stuttered. "No problem." They said, walking away. "I can't do anything right, there is a problem." You opened the closet, and stepped in.
[Timeskip to when you're with ralsei because this is already super long]
You were walking the paths with ralsei, just like you wanted, but it didnt feel like you thought it would, it didn't feel like a weight lifted off your shoulders, you knew that it wouldn't feel like that until you...no. don't think that! You couldn't leave him! Especially since you were all he had. You had been mumbling to yourself without noticing, but ralsei noticed. "Are you alright?" He asked, his face showed concern. You looked at him, you couldnt bare leaving him, but it was too much. "Just give me some time,
and I will do something about all this soon." He sighed, and hugged you. He could tell you were falling into a depressive stage. You see, when you and ralsei first met, you had just came to the dark world, you were scared, and it wasnt exactly the best time for you to have found this place, but he calmed you down and helped you. You told him about your depression and he actually cared. But it didn't matter now, all of that was for nothing. You were fighting back tears as you hugged back, you mumbled something to him softly, "You'll see when I stop breathing." He immediatly let you go when he heared that, still holding onto your shoulders. "(Y/N)! What do you mean!? Are you okay!?" He was freaking out now, you broke out of his grip, and ran, you just ran. And you kept running.
One more time, one more time
"I think I will keep rolling on today too"
You stopped, you were near a cliff, it was time, you saw him approching quickly. You walked over to the cliff as you heared him scream, "Stop, (Y/N!)"
And so she says, so she says
Making sure every word is said with a smile
"No, ralsei. Its my time, i'm so sorry..." you said, you were smiling through your tears, you looked down at the vast emptiness of the fall down the cliff, while you were looking down there, ralsei grabbed you and pulled you back into a hug, you were still fairly close to the edge. "Are you okay?!" He asked, in a tone that was almost yelling. "Yes it's okay.." you said softly. "You must be sick of all this, so let's go and-" he started, you interrupted him. "I will now stop myself from breathing." You said blankly, pushing him away from you and scooting back. You smiled as you pushed yourself off the cliff. You heard him scream as you fell to your death.
"I'm sorry, ralsei."
(1120 words. Guys. This is my longest story yet. Sorry that there wasnt much ralsei, it was just...a lot of filler. But im proud of this and i really liked it! I hope you enjoyed!)
