Warm December's

(29)

*short chapter*

Week had passed by and I was spending it all with Blake. Emma left to tell him what happened that's how he knew I was at the hospital. I went home an hour later. Tired and hungry. I was still broken but I had him. I was told to stay on bed rest though. Apparently I did to much and he's been at the house every day to see me.

He asked me to be his girl friend 3 weeks ago and I said yes. I like him, a lot. He gets my mind off of dean but he's different and I'm still hurt.

"I love you." Blake told me with soft eyes and a smile. " I care about you so much and I don't want you hurt."

"What!" I spit out water.

"I've loved you forever and now that we're dating I just had to tell you." For some reason it hurt me. For someone else to tell me they loved me. It hurt. I was hurt. I was still broke and Blake knew that.

"I- I'm sorry. I can't say it yet." I said sadly.

"It's fine. Say it when your ready." What if I never want to say it.

More weeks passed by and I hadn't once seen dean. Blake and me go out every Friday night. I always had fun and I was happy. He made me happy but I still felt like I had leave.

"Winter I care about you." That line always reminded me of dean and I at the hospital. Me asking him not to leave.

"I got you something." He smiled and sat down next to me holding my hand. That reminded me of the birthday present he gave me that still hung around my neck as we spoke.

"Swim?" He laughed as we jumped into the pool smiling and laughing. That reminded me of all the times he through he over his shoulder and jumped into the pool.

We kissed and it was weird but I liked it. I hadn't kissed anyone sense dean but I was glad it was him.

"I like you Blake. A lot. You make me happy." I loved how we slept in the same bed and and cuddled. I loved how he made me laugh until I couldn't breathe. I loved how he somehow understood my feelings, but dean did that too.

I was still in love with dean and it wasn't fading it was getting stronger. You can overcome heartbreak, but it takes time and I just wonder if I won't ever get over him.
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"You look beautiful." Blake told me as I walked down the stairs in a red dress. I took longer than expected to get dressed because the dress I was going to wear dean bought me and I decided to change.

"You don't look so bad yourself." I laugh wiggling my eyebrows. I fix his tie and smile.

"Ready?" I ask. He nods and holds my hand.

We had been dating for 2 months and still not a word from dean. Not a picture, text, hadn't even seen him in person and that worried me.

"You okay?" He asked.

"Uh yeah and I have to talk to you about something later at diner okay?"

Was I leaving?

Did I still want to leave?