Warm December's

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*short chapter*

I get on my bike. I don't leave for a while. I kind of just sit there paralyzed. I then saw sky come outside.

"What are you still doing here?" She laughs walking up to me.

"I can't do it. I'm freaking out. What if she rejects me. What if she says she can't be with me because she's with Blake. What if she says she doesn't love Blake and she loves me but she can't be with me because I hurt her! What if-"

"Dean. Calm down. You'll be fine. She loves you. Your both just scared. Yes you hurt her. Yes it was bad. Yes you saved her and she told you that she knew you didn't love her back. But you do! You do love her! And you don't want to live your life with out her. You want to marry her someday. You told me yourself. She loves you! Okay! I saw it on her face when she said she was going to leave. I saw it on her face when you were showing me old photos of you and her. Yes you did something wrong! And again you hurt her badly. But if she loved you and you loved her you both would be dumb not to give it a chance. Especially when you lost her once. Don't do it again because your scared." She smiled and we locked eyes.

"Your right. I won't lose her." I again didn't move. "It's just. I know her. And she over thinks... everything. I left today, I left her today to come apologize to you. I left because I was scared and I needed to get away and now I might have actually lost her..."

"You didn't lose her... not yet. Now go... you don't want to waste anymore time..." She laughed.

"Thank you." I smile.

"Go, go." She laughed.

"Okay. Thank you... again."

"No problem." Then I left. I was still scared, and nervous. Probably more than I have ever been but at the same time I was happy, exited. I wanted to tell her how much I cared about her. I wanted to show her how much I loved her. I wanted to wake up to her everyday. I wanted to see her smile and hear her laugh. Everything I had ever felt for her all came into this day. I loved her so much and I was ready to be there with her. I was ready to tell her I love her even if she did say she couldn't... because I was going to do everything I could to get her back. I was going to wait for her, and wait for her until I couldn't anymore. Because I... was not going to lose her again.

I was not going to lose the girl that means most to me in this world again...