Warm December's

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"What do you want to eat?" Blake asked me looking up from his menu.

"Uh I'll just have a Caesar salad." I smiled and put down my menu.

"You sure?" He asked looking back.

"Yeah."

"Okay."

Flashback:

"Okay what to you want to eat?" He smiled looking up from his menu.

"Um I think I'll just have the Caesar salad." I say putting down the expensive menu.

"You sure. You said you were starving?" He puts his menu down on the table and looks at me.

"I'm sure." I smile.

"Winter just because its expensive doesn't mean you shouldn't eat. Now what do you want!?" He laughs.

"Fine." I smile. "I'll have the small steak and Caesar salad."

"Good choice." He laughs and I smile again.

End flashback

"Okay thank you." Blake tell the women with blonde hair as she leaves our table.

Did I want to leave?

Was being here to much?

Maybe I could go back home  

Maybe I could go somewhere new.

Did Blake want to come with me if I did leave?

Was I deciding this too fast?

"So." He paused. "What did you want to talk about." He said in a soft, whisper voice.

"Right." I nodded, scared. "Okay so, I've been thinking about it a lot and I don't know if it's the right choice but I feel it's best for me."

"Okay." He nods taking my hand.

"I can't stay here." I let a tear fall.

"What?"

"Emma doesn't know. No one knows, it's just, it hurts to much to stay here. So much has happened here and I just can't stay here. I understand if you want to break up but." I thought for a second. "But I'm leaving no matter what." He looked at me.

"Winter I'll go anywhere with you. I love you, okay. We'll figure it out." He smiled and looked at the same girl from earlier bringing over our food.

"Thank you, but you don't have to." I added digging into my salad.

"Winter. I'm serious. I know you loved dean, but my love for you doesn't come anywhere close to how he love you." I sat there with anger. I wanted to slap him. He had no right to bring him up and go talk about our relationship.

"I'm sorry." He paused. "I just i love you and sometimes you seem to forget that. You dose off all the time. When we're talking. When we're eating, or doing anything really. You just zone out and think about things. It's annoying and frustrating." He added.

"How dare you. I'm so sorry I think and zone out. If it means so much for you to have a perfect girlfriend let's break up." I yell getting up from my seat.

"Winter I'm sorry. Please just wait!" He called out and I stopped.

"I just. Don't want to lose you and I care for you so much. We were bestfriends before we became something and sometimes it's hard to talk to you like I'm your boyfriend and not best friend." He sighs.